Best Friends (A Joe Sugg Fanfiction)

Chapter Seventy-Three

JOE'S POV

'I'm sorry Bella.. It won't happen again' I said sadness in my voice.

'It had better not. If it does then you know what will happen! Don't you dare test me again Joseph!' Bella shouted as she examined my cuts and bruises. I looked like a mess and I just wanted to visit Emily, to hold her tight and to tell her that it's all going to be okay but I couldn't. Deep down I knew now that because of this mess she hated me. But I also hate me. 

I had to spend today doing jobs for Bella to make up for my wrong doing and it was awful. After I had finished cleaning up Bella tried to kiss me on the neck so that it would progress into something more but I got out of it luckily when she had some 'business' to take care of but it was only postponed and sooner or later I knew that I would have to do things with Bella despite not wanting to. In fact the very thought of it made me sick to the stomach but when it happens I will be thinking of Emily the whole time. She is the love of my life and the only woman for me.

EMILY'S POV

I woke up after a terrible sleep all that I could see when I closed my eyes were two bright beaming headlights heading straight towards me and whenever I saw this I woke up screaming. It was horrible and now I didn't feel safe but it was just me. I was alone. A doctor in a white lab coat walked into the room holding a clipboard in one hand with all of my notes in.

'Ms. Brown' she said politely.

'Yes?' I replied worried that she was going to tell me some bad news.

'We will have to do a scan' she replied as if it were a normal process.

'A scan?' I asked her puzzled even more now.

'Yes' she replied.

'A scan for what exactly?' I questioned.

'Well you do know your pregnant don't you' She responded and I was in utter shock. I shook my head in disbelief. 'I'm sorry I thought you knew. You're about 4 months pregnant Ms. Brown so we will take you down for an ultrasound scan later today to check if there is any damage' she added. I was still sat there in shock. How could I be pregnant Joe and I only had sex twice and how the hell didn't I already know? The Doctor got up and left the room and as soon as she did that I started to cry. Joe wasn't going to be there for me. I had nobody, my parents walked out on me because I didn't want to marry Dylan, Dylan had died. I had lost all of my friends and Joe decided that I wasn't good enough for him anymore.

I sat there in the hospital bed in tears for hours. I couldn't have another abortion after feeling terrible about the previous one. I was going to be a single mum of three and unable to make YouTube videos, I would have to work three or more jobs like a used to do just to pay the rent and then I would have to try and buy food for us. It was impossible but I had to make it possible for the sake of Jack and Rose and now baby number three.

Later on during the day the Doctor came in and I wiped my eyes after crying for about 5 or more hours non stop. She took me to my ultrasound scan and luckily the baby was okay and surprisingly no harm came to it during the accident. 'Just lay of the drink then you'll be fine' she said.

'Of course, I didn't know I was pregnant until today though' I replied. I went to get a shower at the hospital with the help of the Doctor because I was in agony in my back and legs. I washed my hair and put it in a messy bun with a new pair of pajamas before going to make a call at the payphones scattered around the hospital. 'Hey Zack it's Emily. How are Jack and Rose doing?' I asked him, he was the only friend that I had left. 'They're great! Why what's wrong?' He asked recognizing that I wasn't myself immediately. 'I've been hit by a speeding van. I was so close to dying and to top it all I've just found out that I am pregnant' I said starting to cry again.

'Who's the father?' he asked shocked by the news.

'Joe' I replied and after that Zack tried to comfort me over the phone and tell me that he was going to be there for me but I knew that he was too busy with University to help out. I hung up the phone and went back to the ward and into my bed. I got out my now cracked phone and looked to see if anyone had tried to contact me but straight away a picture collage of me and Joe smiling, laughing and kissing popped up on the screen. I knew that we had broken up but I couldn't bring myself to change it. I hated Joe with a passion after everything that he has put me through but I also loved him with all of my heart. 

I scrolled through my contacts and found his name hesitating at whether I should call him or not. I clicked on call but instantly hung up because I was too scared of him answering me and telling me that he didn't care. I just wanted to tell him that he was going to be a dad but then I remembered that he hadn't tried to talk to me about seeing Jack or Rose so why should I bother to tell him. I'm better of alone than with him anyway because all he does is bring me heartache and pain. 

But I couldn't help loving him...