Best Friends (A Joe Sugg Fanfiction)

Chapter Sixty-Three

I got in my car and just drove away pretty fast, 'we will be best friends no matter what happens' those were his words years ago, had he completely forgotten that? I was so angry with him and upset at the same time that I went to a park, sat on a bench and just cried remembering all of the reasons why I loved him. Little does he know that I'm breaking apart while he falls asleep, I'm trying to pick myself up again and underneath the smiles I'm scared and alone...

I didn't know what to do I loved my best friend and I always have and always will but it seems like we don't work as a couple anymore. He's too busy for me and his children so it just doesn't work. A few hours after crying I got back in my car and drove to pick up Jack and Rose (A.N - I just noticed they are the names of the titanic people haha) I arrived and knocked on the door, Joe answered and let me in Caspar was there too. 'Caspar can you put the children in the car please' I asked politely and he nodded heading to the car. 

'I guess this is goodbye then' I said nearly in tears to Joe when we were alone.

'Goodbye Emily' he said back equally as sadly. 

'I guess you should have these back' I said tears falling down my face as I handed him my wedding ring and engagement ring. 'I mean I won't be needing them anymore and this way you can... you can move on' I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek before I turned and walked away. I got to the car where I saw Caspar and gave him a big hug, 'bye Casp' I said squeezing him tightly, 'look after him for me'. I got in the car and drove away just like that to start my new adventure in Scotland. 'Are you ready to go Rosey Poo' I said smiling to Rose and she nodded excitedly, 'lets go then!' I said excited.

Underneath the smiles I was crying inside wanting to run to Joe and hug him tightly. Why did love have to be so hard? I can only take so much heartache and this was too much, I mean it was partially my fault after all I told him to move on but I hope that he doesn't because that would kill me so much.

We arrived at the new house in Scotland and I turned on some music and the song that came on was Alex & Sierra - Back To You which made me cry. I tried to make a cup of tea to calm me down but I couldn't help it if everything reminded me of him. Jack looked a spitting image of Joe and it hurt me to look at him because I just missed Joe when I looked at his cute sleeping face. We had arranged for the kids to go to his at the weekends from Friday to Monday morning so he could still have a relationship with them because that was important.

(2 years later)

It had been two years now since I left Joe and started a new life here in Scotland, I missed home a lot but I had my beautiful children, Rose who was now six and Jack who was now 2, how time flies. I was a 26 year old single mum of two and life was actually okay I mean I still broke down when I went to sleep but that was something I've learnt to live with. Today was another day in the mad life of Emily Mae Brown oh yes! Me and Joe had now got a divorce which was his choice not mine but it was okay after all I did tell him to move on.

I was getting Rose and Jack ready to go to Joe's and they were really excited as per usual. They always loved spending time at their daddy's because they were spoiled rotten by him and Uncle Casp. We drove all the way to London which was over 8 hours away and arrived at Joe's. I knocked on the door where a woman answered, probably one of Caspar's new dates I couldn't have been more wrong if I tried! 'Who is it babe?' I heard a familiar voice shout, even to this day I almost shout back when he says babe before realising that I'm not his babe anymore. 'Oh it's just Emily with the kids' she shouted back. How did she know my name? 'Hey, I'm Isabella please feel free to call me Bella' she smiled at me. She was so pretty with brunette hair and flawless skin clearly model material. 'Joe told me lots about you' she smiled again. 

She invited me in and sat me down before getting me a drink of tea. 'I have something I need to tell you because Joe will probably chicken out bless him' she said still smiling with her perfect smile. 'basically Joe asked me to marry him and I said yes!' She said excitedly. 'You're invited to the wedding it's next Saturday but I haven't told Joe my other news yet so I will tell you first! I'm pregnant!' At this point she pulled me into a hug and I hugged back, she was a sweet girl who clearly loved him a lot. 'Congratulations' I said to her trying my hardest to hold back the tears, that was when Joe came into the living room and I couldn't bare seeing them together so I instantly stood up when he walked in and said quickly 'I-I have to go' tears were now falling down my cheeks and I couldn't stop them. I ran out and down the street breaking down as I reached the end of the street.

'What have I done?' I said over and over out loud to myself, I was so angry at myself because I let him go. This was all down to me why did I have to give him back the rings? This is why he wanted a divorce so he could marry her to take my place, and she's pregnant! They're like a cute family Joe, Bella, Jack, Rose and the baby. Maybe my kids liked her more too... I couldn't bare it if they did. They were the only ones keeping me going these days, whenever I feel like giving up I look at them and remind myself how they would be without me and stop myself from giving up. They are the one thing I fight for...