Best Friends (A Joe Sugg Fanfiction)

Chapter Fifty-Three

Why was life never easy? I mean, one day you wake up to your husband and things are going perfectly and then in the next breath he could be fighting for his life. I didn't want to think about these thoughts but I couldn't help it. It took me so long to get out of my depression ditch but now it was like I was slowly falling back into it. Joe was still recovering in hospital, yes he was stable and yes he was awake but things still weren't okay with him. I could tell that he was still angry with me about the whole Dylan situation and trust me I understood why but it seemed that no matter what I do to make things okay they never succeed. I couldn't wait for Joe to get back home and for things to go back to normal, I had made a few YouTube videos explaining how things were going and there were so many positive comments wishing Joe a speedy recovery but he just didn't seem interested by any of it.

Today was a Saturday so Rose and I went shopping to get Joe some doughnuts and other sweet items to cheer him up and then we drove straight to the hospital to see him. When we arrived at the hospital Joe wasn't in his room, I rushed to the reception desk now carrying Rose and asked the woman where he was, 'he's in surgery right now. If you take a seat we will let you know when he comes out' she said in a serious tone which sent shivers down my spine. 'S-surgery? Why is he in surgery?!' I said getting angry because I wasn't told any of this. 

At that moment a doctor walked into the waiting room, 'Mrs Sugg?' he said politely.

'yes?' I replied in a sort of polite tone. 'Is he out of surgery yet? Why was he in surgery?' I started to say panicking. 'We don't want to alarm you or anything but we found out that Joe had some internal bleeding and we had to operate. He is still in the operation but he will be coming out of it soon' I slowly started to become sad again. 'Mummy? Why are you crying?' Rose said smiling to me which made me cry some more. 'Mummy's fine sweetheart' I said kissing her on the forehead. 

'Silly Mummy feeling sad about nothing' she laughed as she pretended to smack me as if she was telling me off. I smiled at her trying to stop the tears from falling, I know it sounds stupid because she's only three but I honestly don't know what I'd do without Rose right now. I ended up leaving the hospital after two hours of waiting and dropped Rose off at Jim and Tanya's. I knocked on the door and they took Rose's overnight bag. 'Thank you so much guys!' I said hugging them both tightly. 'How's he doing?' Jim asked me a little concerned.

'I don't know' I said sadly and then I left to head back to the hospital. I had waited there all night and still hadn't heard any news on whether he was okay. I knew that he was out of surgery but I wasn't allowed to see him yet. I couldn't sleep obviously this was because the waiting room chairs weren't comfy but also, I was worried sick about Joe. The next morning I was allowed to see him but I looked a mess, my hair was horrible and all over the place and I had bags under my eyes because of lack of sleep. I walked in and Joe was awake and looking at me sympathetically. 'You knew didn't you?' I whispered sadly. 'You knew about the bleeding, they told you didn't they...' 

'Em... I couldn't tell you. I didn't want to hurt you' I could hold in my joy for having him here so I just walked over to him and kissed him on the lips making sure that I didn't touch any sore areas of his body. 

A few weeks had passed and Rose was at school by this time Joe was making a great recovery. I lay on his hospital bed next to him as he cuddled me close to his chest. 'I can still remember seeing you walk down those stairs when we were teenagers. You looked so beautiful I was stunned, you had makeup on and your hair was done all lovely. That was the moment when I truly did confirm my feelings for you. I had liked you for so long but I couldn't tell you anything because I didn't want it to ruin anything that we had. You were my best friend for so so long but I knew from that moment on that I needed us to be more than just best friends. I love you Emily Mae Sugg. I am so glad that we kissed all those years ago because without that kiss we wouldn't have dated, we wouldn't have got married or had our beautiful babies. Yes some of those were tough especially when Oscar died but we got through them because our love was so strong. I'm not good at dealing with emotions and you know that better than any one else. That's why I was rubbish to you when things weren't running on a smooth line of emotion because I didn't know what to do. I'm sorry and I love you so much Emily...'