I Can't Lose You(Sequel To It's Your Love)

Chapter 3

FAITH POV: I feel bad about the way I'm treating Tim, but he just doesn't understand. It's my body, it's my pregnancy. I can't do what he wants to me to do. If I did I could never live with myself. I need to give this baby a chance. After Tim walked out the room. I just cried myself to sleep. I heard him come back in a few hours later and get in bed. But I pretended to be sleeping. I can hear him sniffling like he's been crying. I can't worry about this right now. I can't deal with all this. But he's right about one thing, we do need to wait till the tests are run and we get the results before deciding anything. It could be a false alarm? Maybe the doctor was wrong? Well we will find out in a couple of days. COUPLE OF DAYS LATER STILL FAITH POV: Today is my dr's appt. After we drop off Gracie to school, we are heading to the doctor. Tim got his mom to stay with Maggie. The ride to the doctors office was quiet. That's basically been the past couple of days. We've barely spoken. We've spoken but only when it came to the girls. I get in bed before he does. I make sure I"m asleep or pretend I am before he gets in bed. He tries to comfort me but I pull away everytime. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to treat him this way, I just wish he would be on my side, that he would support any decision I decide. We got to the doctors office. I was about to get out when Tim stopped me. "Faith..wait" "Tim...my appointment" "This will only take a minute ok, we have some time" "Ok what" I said kind of annoyed. "look whatever happens, I'm here for you ok? I love you and nothing will change that" "Ok fine can we go in now" "not until I know we are ok" I smiled "we are ok as long as you are serious about supporting whatever I decide" "I do.. but can we just wait till the test results come back, please?" "Ok fine, that sounds only fair" "ok" He leaned and gave me a kiss. I smiled "ok lets go" We got out and walked in. I signed in and we sat in the waiting area. Shortly after the nurse called us back. The nurse did her thing, checked my vitals all that. She than left a gown for me to get into. "Ok Faith, here's the gown. you know the routine" "yes I do, been through this before" she smiled "ok Dr Peterson will be in shortly" "ok thank you" I than changed into the gown and got on the bed. Tim pulled a chair beside me and held my hand "Tim." "hmmm. yeah" "I'm so scared" "I know baby, I am two, but lets just wait till we know for sure ok" "ok" The doctor and another nurse than walked in. "Hello Faith, Tim" "Hello Dr" "ok so Faith how are you feeling today?" "Ok just really nervous" "That's understandable" "ok I'm going to explain to you both what we are going to do today" "ok" "first we are going to do an ultrasound, but this ultrasound we are doing is different from a regular one" "What does that mean?" Tim asked "well its more depth than a regular one. This is a 4D one" "oh ok" "This will give us a clear picture of the baby and see what's going on. We are also going to draw some labs for testing" "ok" Alright Faith, this is going to be a little cold" he said as put the gel on my stomach. I"m so scared. Please let everything be ok, please! The doctor than moved around the wand thing for the ultrasound. "Ok here's your baby" I looked at the screen and smiled with tears in my eyes. "Oh wow" Tim said "it's really tiny right now and that's one of the problems" "I don't understand" "well your about almost 2 months along now and from this the baby should've developed more and we noticed something by the baby that we aren't sure what it is yet" "is it possible that she's not as far along as you thought and what is it by the baby?" Tim asked "possibly that's why we are going to run the labs to check. And I'm not quite sure yet what it is. It could be nothing. Could just be shadow that ultrasound machine is picking up. Now the results can take up to a week or two to come back" "oh wow that long?" "yes sorry. But hopefully by than we should know something. Now like I said this could just be a mistake or false alarm ok" "Ok" "The nurse here will draw your blood and than you are free to go. I want to see you when the labwork comes back in" "ok thank you dr" "your welcome" Than he left and the nurse drew my blood.