I Can't Lose You(Sequel To It's Your Love)

Chapter 24

A FEW MONTHS LATER FAITH POV: It's getting closer to the Thanksgiving holiday. After I woke up from my surgery after 3 days of been out, I was released later that afternoon the next day. Tim says he forgives me but things just haven't been the same. I know he loves and cares for me, but there's something he just isn't telling me. The part of the tumor thats still inside me so far has not caused too much of a problem. The biopsy on the tumor that was taken out came back benign. So we were all happy about that. The baby is growing now nicely, still not to where it should be but, he or she is growing. So I'm happy about that. I have to go to the doctor for a checkup every week since I got out of the hospital. Otherwise things are slowly getting more back to normal somewhat. I can't do much. I was told till the baby is born to try to avoid over doing it. I need to rest as much as possible which is hard with 2 kids. Tim has helped but when he can't we had either his mom or Carol the girls' nanny help us. We still haven't found out the sex of the baby. I decided now to just wait till the baby is born and Tim agreed. He keeps telling me things between us are fine. But he's also been somewhat cold a little. I'm not sure why. I mean I know I was mean to him and blamed him for what happened, but truth is, it's not his fault at all. I feel bad the way I treated him. I apologized so many times. He's barely really talked to me except when it comes to to the girls or if he's going out or to work or whatever. I feel like he's a stranger. I think we really need to sit down later on and talk. Right now he's at the studio working on this new album. He's also been asked to be in a movie which he said yes to. But he has a small role and he was able to shoot his scenes in just a few days. He had to go out of town for it. But that's done. I really haven't seen too much of him in the past few weeks between him working on that movie and being in the studio. When he's home he is taking care of the girls and me. I can't continue going on like this. Once the girls are in bed, I'm going to talk to him.