I Can't Lose You(Sequel To It's Your Love)

Chapter 13

FAITH POV: FEW DAYS LATER: Today is my appointment. Tim took the girls to school. Thankfully today is one of the days again Maggie is in preschool. Once Tim got back we left to the appointment. We didn't really discuss too much again after the other night. I know Tim had a chance to look over everything. We just haven't discused it. We got the doctors office. I was taken back shortly afterwards. The nurse did my vitals. "OK Faith you gained a little weight, which is good. ok The Doctor will be in shortly" "ok thank you" "Tim.. " "yeah" "have you thought what we should do?" "about?" "Tim all the stuff the doctor discussed with us at the previous visits. I know you had a chance to read and research everything, so what do you think?" Before Tim could answer the doctor came in. "Hello Faith, Tim" "Hello Doctor" He looked over my chart "Ok gained a little weight, that's good. Ok I'm going to do another ultrasound" "ok" I lifted up shirt a little so the doctor can put the gel stuff on my stomach. "ok lets see whats going on here" I than heard the sweetest sound. my baby's heartbeat I couldn't help but smile. Even Tim smiled "ok so looks like the baby did grow a little" "Well that's good right" "yes but Faith, the baby still hasn't grown where it should by now. You are almost 4 months a long. And the tumor has also grown" "so what does all this mean?" "Well have you both had the chance to read over everything I gave you last week and do your own research?" "yes we have" "ok have you both decided anything?" "Well. we really haven't discussed it" "Faith, you really need to decide soon. Becauase if this thing continues to grow it can get bigger than the size of your baby and suffocate it" "OH MY GOSH!" "I'm not trying scare you. I just want to be honest with you, with you both. This is getting more serious. Now in my expert opnion, I strongly advise the surgery" "But I'm afraid...." "Faith baby, please just think about it" "I have Tim, I just don't think I can do it" "Faith, Tim, look I have been your doctor for years. I've done this surgery before. I believe I can get this thing out of you without causing any harm to the baby. But if you wait too long the risk of the baby or you not surviving becomes higher" "Doctor Peterson, how soon can the surgery be done?" Tim asked "as soon as possible. I feel this is the only way" "Doctor can Tim and I have a few minutes to discuss this?" "sure no problem, I will be back in a few minutes" "thank you" he than left. "Faith please do the surgery" "Tim.. I.. I can't do it, I'm scared" "Honey I will be with you every step of the way. You heard Doctor Peterson.. he's done this before" "I know, I just don't want to lose this baby" "I don't either and I don't to want lose you and I'm afraid if you don't do this surgery now, I will lose you, lose you both" he started to cry "ok Tim I understand your fears but.." "God damn it Faith think of our other 2 children, they need their mother" "Tim I know that, this is tearing me apart" I said crying. "look please don't cry" "what am I supposed to do" "I Love you so damn much I'm scared, if something happnes to you, I'm afraid I won't be able to go on without you, please please I'm pleading with you have the surgery" The doctor than walked in. "so have you both made a decision" Tim and I looked at each other I can see the fear in his eyes