I Can't Lose You(Sequel To It's Your Love)

Chapter 15

FAITH POV: I'm still very uncomfortable with this decision to have the surgery. I'm very scared and nervous. Tim called his mom to come to take care of the girls tomorrow. She's actually going to come over tonight and spend the night.  It was almost 9pm both girls are in bed and asleep. Tim is downstairs in his office doing something. I was in the kitchen getting everything ready for the girls for tomorrow. Than there was a knock at the door. That must be Betty. "Hi Betty,how are you?" "I'm good sweetie, how are you doing?" she said as I let her in and closed the door. She gave me a hug. "Are you sure your ok?" "yeah fine" I think she could tell things weren't "Fine" "come sit down and talk to me" She said. "ok" We sat down on the couch and just talked. I told her everything that's been going on with the decision on the surgery and Tim. I started to cry "oh honey it will be ok!" "Yeah I hope so, I'm just so scared that this decision is the wrong one" "Does Tim know how your feeling on this?" "Yes I think so. He knows I'm not happy about this surgery and I'm scared for the baby" just than Tim walked in "Oh Hi Mom I didn't hear you come in" He said and went over and hugged her. "I just got here about 15 minutes or so ago" "oh ok" I just sat there.  Tim looked over at me. "I'm going to bring my stuff up to the guest room" "I can do that for you if you want mom" "No son it's ok I got it" I heard her whisper to Tim, "Talk to her" He nodded. He sat down next to me. "Faith.." "Tim don't please." "Don't what? love you, wanting to be here for you? it seems like anything I do or say you get upset with me. I just don't know what to do anymore" it was quiet he's right. I know he just wants what is best for me. But I also feel like I'm being somewhat forced into this surgery. "Tim. I'm sorry ok. I'm just really scared" I cried "I know you are baby, I am also. But I'm here for you, I love you so much" "I love you two. its just.." "Just what talk to me" "I feel like I'm being forced into this surgery. Something inside me tells me this isn't right" "Faith, we went over everything. Dr  Peterson wouldn't be suggesting this if wasn't necessary. You are in good hands. Our baby is in good hands ok?" "ok your right. I'm just so afraid.." "Hey come here" He just held me in his arms. I just cried. I needed this right now.  "how about we go upstairs and get some sleep?" "Ok" We walked upstairs checked on the girls and than Tim went to check on his mom to make sure she had everything and than came in the bedroom. I was lying in bed just thinking about everything. This is the right decision. I have to believe that. Tim came in the bed. "you ok?" "Yeah fine" "no your not, Faith.." "Tim it's ok, all is ok I promise" "Ok" He layed down and put his arm around me. I layed my head on his chest and soon after fell asleep.