A Few Pages from my Brain

I realize something

Sitting here on the damp sidwalk

With the rain pouring down above me

I realize something

I'm ugly

Pale

Not like I should be

Black flat hair

Where's the sheen?

Dark

Lifeless

Expressionless

Eyes

A body no one would mourn when cold and limp

Walking down the dark cobblestone street

Slick from the droplets falling from the sky

I realize something

I'm stupid

Dumb

Not what my parents wanted

Brainless

Isn't that what my friends said?

Slow

Thick

Unintelligent

Brain

A mind no one would miss when it stopped thinking.

Swinging on the old swing at the park

The rain still falling all around

I realize something

I'm dead

Lifeless

Not as I was

Gone

Why'd they let me go?

Six feet under

Buried in dirt

Alone in a casket

A corpse everyone's forgotten

That is

If they even remembered.