"I'm home Adrian..."
He eyed me before he held my face gently but his eyes were damn serious that in any second I know it can melt me. What happened to him? Is the result of what I'd done?
I swallow the lump in my throat. He looks pleased yet not...?
"Uhm, Adrian?" I broke the ice between the two of us.
He breathes heavily and closed his eyes. "Are you even sure that you're really back? That you're home here with me?" He seriously asked.
I mentally dropped my jaw. Where's my sweet Adrian? Did someone abduct him and changed him with the current Adrian that I'm with now?
My mouth goes without even thinking about what he asked. "Yes." I answered even though I know that his question is a damn double meaning! Come on AD, as if there's something you can do? Can you anger him? Ugh. Damn, of course I well damn know that I can't!
He smiled, I almost jump in joy if his eyes weren't serious enough like this, right now, like he can see through my soul and know if I'm lying or not. "Good." He said and caresses my face gently.
"So... uhm, how are you?" I asked, so unsure if what should I say first. "Good m-morning?" I hesitated in greeting him and in turns out to be a question! Stupid Antonette!
He chuckled lightly and places his hand on my waist, pulling me closer to his body. I gulp at the contact. I was held between his strong arms and my face was leaning in his broad chest. I felt his chin in my head. "Of course I'm not ok." He said. I felt his hug tighten. "How can I be ok if you leave me blind? You leave me with nothing. I always ask for the truth but you always neglect to give me one and keep saying you're sorry." He paused and breathes. "You left me with nothing and you're asking me if how am I? I'm not ok Antonette. I'm not."
I felt the pain through his words. Yeah, curse me! Damn it. Why do I keep hurting the one I love? Why do I keep on hurting him? Why do I keep doing this alone when all along he's always with me? Am I always this blind?
I pulled away softly-but, he didn't let me go. I felt weak. I was over powered by the man I love. Still, I love being weak in him. He's been the source of my everything.
"Don't pull away. Don't leave me again... ever." He said-sternly said at me.
I really suck didn't I? I always make him sad, always! Ugh! I just want to pull my hair from this irritating feeling! Curse this stupidity of mine!
"I'm home Adrian..." I said softly. "I came back."
"But that's not permanent Antonette." He said stiffly.
I bite my lower lip. I felt like a five year old kid being scolded by his father! But the scenery now is I'm already a grown up lady and here I am! I'm being scolded by my awesome hot lustful lover of mine.
There's no permanent thing in this world Adrian... but of course I couldn't tell him that! I can't anger him by saying that! Come on, I really need to face this reality that my awesome hot lustful lover is not convinced by my sweetest smile I ever produced! He can be ungrateful sometime! My smile is that effort! My effort, you know?
"You always leave and I don't have the choice but to always watch you walking away from me." I heard the pain in his tone.
Heavens, I'm such a pain and a burden.
I pulled away to reach for his face and he let me caress it. His skin is so soft and tempting me to leave a kiss there-so I did. I grinned wickedly.
