It's a love/hate Relationship (sequel) After Amnesia

29. Solid ground

Caitlyn's P.O.V

It's currently 12 pm exactly. I'm standing at the his front door, hesitating to knock. Finally after fighting myself, I decided to ring the dorm doorbell.
"It's open!" He yells from inside. I slowly turn the knob and open the door
"I-it's me Ri" suddenly I see him rushing to the door As he let's me in and shits the door behind us.
"Caitlyn, how's everything" he looks me up and down.
"Things could be better.."
"Oh no...come sit" we sit on the couch as I have this urge to just cry but at the same time, I'm kind of over that.
"Look I just want you to know I'm so so sorry! But because I respect your relationship I felt need to tell him I never ever wanted to-" I cut him off, engulfing him in a big hug. He was surprised at first but soon enough wrapped his arms around me.
"I just need you to hold me" I could feel him smiling.
"Do you wanna tell me what happened"
I breathed out as we pulled apart.
"Okay...first he was just hurt. But them he started yelling and calling me a slut and-"
"He WHAT!"
"No please Ri just, let me finish." He sat back down relaxing his shoulders.
"So then..I slapped him."
"Good Job Caitlyn" I chuckled.
"But then we started fighting and one thing led to another, we broke up..and I felt like I was literally dying inside so I stopped eating and I literally became I'll and I don't exactly know how long it's been I was so disconnected and depressed and..ugh"
"Caitlyn...I am So so sorry. All if this is my fault.."
"It's okay. This is making me stronger. Last night, Harry said some things I never imagined he would say about me and he.....slept with another girl"
"Whoa"
"Yeah..and you would think that would send me off the deep end but I don't know I guess I just saw it coming"
"Yeah..C that's terrible"
"But then I decided that I needed to stop being all upset because it wasn't gonna solve anything and i want to aspire in life and I can't do that if I'm drowning in my own tears all day. So I took a shower and re habilitation myself a bit. And I feel better, I feel ready to talk about things and sort our my thoughts." A single tear fell down his left cheek as he took my hand.
"I'm...I'm so sorry I did this to you"
"It's okay Rider, you didn't mean for this to happen"
"But it did and it's all my fault"
"Hey! If I say I'm okay, then you should be okay too!" I say grabbing his shoulders.
"I love you Caitlyn, and I'm going to make this up to you."
"I love you too Rider, your an amazing guy, and an amazing friend" he smiled.
"Friend..I actually really like that" he gave me a big hug and told me everything was going to be okay as he sent off to go meet Mickey.
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I walk towards the spot I always sat in with Harry, the reality of it all settling in. I couldn't help but smile, all the sweet memories. Harry Styles is one if the kindest most warm- hearted person I know. But he's been hurt, so he's changed. He was the absolute love of my life for that last two years if my life..he was my life. Now he is my nothing and I have to accept that. It won't be easy..but I survived 16 years if life before I met him I think I can survive now. Seeing him be weird, but I have friends to keep me strong. Soon enough Mickey arrived with three bags if Cheetos, a tub of Cookies and cream ice cream, chocolate milk, two spoons and a box of pizza.
"How did you climb with all that!!"
"You become Wonder Woman when your best friend needs you..and I need you to eat before you die!!" I laugh.
"Thank you.....because I'm really hungry. I'm starving I literally feel my body begging for food!" She hands over the box of pizza as I devour it in five minutes all by myself.
"Oh my God M I'm sorry you didn't get to eat any.."
"That's okay, it's worth it. You need all the food you can get. Break ups are hard babe." We sat aha isn't the greenhouse eating the ice cream until someone broke the silence.
"What are you thinking about"
"I'm thinking about..what great friends I have." Mickey smiled.
"Caitlyn, he slept with another girl."
"I know..and you know what? It did hurt. It physically hurt me, emotionally hurt me and it still does. But, I can't be as forever. I need to bravely face life without him from now on."
"I'm so proud to hear that C, because u know it's not gonna be easy"
"I know, but I can't run from this anymore.."
"And your not running alone. You'll never run alone. We never run anyways were too lazy for that!" We laughed.
Suddenly tears came down from Mickey's eyes.
"I love hearing you laugh again..Caitlyn the second we get home I don't know what will happen but know that were all here for you. Your aloud to feel sad, but you deserve to be happy." I wiped her tears away as she smiled.
"Hey,if I'm not crying you shouldn't be either!" She laughed.
"Did you talk to Rider?"
"Yes, and he was very helpful. He's a great friend and he did the right thing. He did what I couldn't do."
"Well I'll tell you this- things could get better or worse. It's going to be hard around here. But at the end of the day-"

"We got you babe..."