It's a love/hate Relationship (sequel) After Amnesia

96. Alone

Mickeys P.O.V

"M?"
"Mickey"
"Mickey say something" I couldn't. My words were locked in my throat I just couldn't speak.

"Mickey this can't happen. Your not ready..Luke isn't ready!" I couldn't help but just have tears flow down my face.

"Your only 21, you don't even know how a pregnancy works..Luke doesn't even know what a period is!" Her words became quieter to my ears. I couldn't see or hear clearly. I just stared at the piece of blue plastic as if it were the end of my life.

"MICKEY SAY SOMETHING!"

"IM SCARED! OKAY!" She just looked at the ground.

"I don't know what to do, and I'm scared! Caitlyn there's a thing growing inside of me! What about school? A job? My life.."

"I just ruined Luke's life..oh my God what did I..his life is over!" I just cried into my hands, dropping the damned thing to the ground. Caitlyn quickly called the guys to come back. She had left the bathroom, god knows how long it's been since she's left. All I could do is sit here on the floor and stare at the test. I placed my hand over my stomach and I got a chill. There is..a baby..inside of me. How the hell is my life gonna stay the same?! My thoughts were broken by Harry running into the bathroom. He closed the door and sat in front of me, the second he took my hands I let the sobs escape.

"I ruined his life Harry, it's all over" tears ran down his cheeks as he pulled me into his lap.

"It's gonna be okay M, we won't let things get bad."

"I can't raise a kid, I'm still a kid!" Harry lifted my face to look at him.

"Do not cry, I forbid you to cry Michelle" he said still crying himself.

"We will get through this..together"

"Does Ashton Hate me? He probably thinks I'm a whore" I cried.

"Stop it! Nobody thinks that! Okay?" I nodded as he wiped some tears.

"No way my best friend is gonna go through this alone. Caitlyn got Luke out for a bit. The rest of us are gonna talk"

"I can't.."

"You can.." He lifted me up off the floor, opening his arms. He held me tightly as I just cried into his chest.

"I'm so scared Harry" I croaked.
"Me too Princess" he walked us out to where the guys were siting on the couch. Michael and Niall ran up to me and hugged me. This just made me cry even more. They finally let go and sat down. Ashton got up and slowly made his way towards me..and God did it hurt to see my brother cry.

"I'm SO SORRY ASH" I dropped to his knees and just cried in my own shame.
He picked me back up just hugged me.

"I'm not mad Mick, I'll never be mad at you...were gonna get this all sorted out I promise. " we sat down, got me all dried up and waited for Luke to come. The second I heard footsteps up the dorm stairs I wanted to jump off a cliff and just stay down there forever.

"I can't do it!" I breathed.

"Mickey..he's the love of your life. He would run to the ends of the earth for you- I know it to be okay" Michael kissed my cheek as they all walked away.

"Good luck M" Harry glanced as they all his behind the pantry room. The door opened and I swear my heart stopped beating for a split second.

"Mitchie hey!" I had to fight so hard not to let the tears show.

"L-Luke can we....can we talk?"

"Of course" Caitlyn shot me a glance as she joined the others.

"Mitchie what's wrong" he took my hands as he looked extremely concerned.

"Did someone hurt you! You know I will beat their-"

"No Luke..I just I want you to know that I love you and that I never meant for this to happen" scared for my life, I pulled out the test and placed it on the coffee table. His face drained of all color as he swallowed.

"W-what the hell is this?"
I sniffled.

"It's a...I'm sorry" I let some of the tears flow through.

"NO! Do NOT cry because if you cry I'm gonna start crying and we need to talk about this!" He said a little angry.

"Answer the question Michelle what the hell is this!?" He said standing up.

"My pregnancy test" I barely spoke.

"Why? Is this a prank? Huh are you screwing with me?" He said glaring at me.

"It was...until it wasn't" I sniffled.

"Why are you running around testing yourself? Do you want to ruin my life Michelle?"

"I can't believe you just said that"

"Yeah well I can't believe I was stupid enough to get a girl knocked up at 21!"

"This isn't easy for me either Luke your not the one with a person inside you!"

"Easy KILL IT!" He yelled.

"Y-you want me to Abort?" I stutter.

"What else are you gonna do?"

"What we are gonna d-"

"No Mickey..what are you gonna do. Because unless you kill that thing I'm not dealing with it"

"Who are you? WHy are you being so hateful!" I cried which surprisingly didn't affect him as usual.

"I'm 'hateful' because your actually considering keeping it!"

"I don't know what to do Luke I'm kind of scared out of my mind!"

"It's not that hard, hell use a coat hanger!" He yelled.

"I can't believe..mind you this is a BABY! You want me to kill a baby!"

"Yes! Well..not if it's a baby.."

"NEWS FLASH THATS WHAT AN
ABORTION IS!"

"I just can't believe you were so stupid!" He spat at me.

"I can't believe your acting the way you are. All I needed was for you to hug me and tell me it was all gonna be okay. And that you love me!"  He exhaled loudly.

"What you need is to get rid of it. Make it go away like none of this ever happened! I'm not gonna be a father! Il refuse to be the young screw up that didn't make a life for himself because he knocked up some tramp!" I couldn't take it any longer, I rammed my hand across his face.

"You know what Luke, I'm gonna keep this baby. With or without you"

"Fine, deal with months of pain so that your now WASTED life that you could've had is consumed by a creature that will just leave you when it turns 18, a mother who is so unstable that if someone even looks at her wrong she cuts herself, that in 20 years will look back and think I should've of just escaped this when I had the chance."
In that moment I could literally feel my heart smash Into a thousand pieces.

"At least it won't have the memory of you as a dad" I said through the tears that quietly fell down my face.

"Whatever, have fun screwing up your life..you already messed with mine"

"Right because I didn't put a roof over your head when your deadbeat dad abandoned you. I didn't give you love care and affection and the life I thought you deserved." A single tear fell down his face.  "But I guess that's just something you both won't have in common"

"And in 20 years when I'm hand in hand with my beautiful child, remember who had matching wrist scars with you Luke. Remeber who took in that scared little boy and made him a fucking man! Remember who loved you despite all your flaws. Remember how you broke that like you do everything in your life" before I could get further insulted I took a good look at him and made my way towards the door.

"Thank you Luke, for leaving me completely alone in this time of need. Not that you care or anything" and with that I was out, just me, and my baby.