It's a love/hate Relationship (sequel) After Amnesia

26. Its official

Caitlyn's P.O.V

I woke up to an empty bed, empty room, empty soul. I can still hear his sweet, tender voice calling me 'love'. I could feel his long hair grazing my face as his soft lips melt my insides. I could feel his arms wrapped around me protectively and lovingly  for hours at a time...but I can also feel the emptiness of it all. The worst part of all the hurt- is that I'm forced to relive the hurt and anger everyday as I see him constantly in our dorm area. I see him and I wanna kiss him and hug him..but I wanna hit him and yell at him because he hurt me too. He hurt me bad, deep and that anger is not good to mix with the sadness in me right now. It's 4 pm and I'm still laying in bed staring motionless at the roof. My hair roughed up and clothes stained of tears, swollen face from the sobbing and bloodshot eyes clouding my visions of nothing.
Suddenly I see two tall figures coming towards me.
"Caitlyn"
"Go away..."
"No, you need to eat. Now." I can tell it's Michael by the smell of waffles and Ashton by the sound I his deep Australian voice. Suddenly a third one walks in.
"Let me talk to her, I got this guys" they walk out leaving what I'm assuming to be my brother. My vision clearing up as for the first time my weak vines manage to sit up.
"My little sister...you look terrible" that makes me laugh, the laughter turning into low sobs as Niall takes me into his arms.
"As your brother I want to kill him with every fiber in my body Bc your my sister an I love you and that's my job"
"But as your friend I just hate seeing you like this in general..so please come eat before you become ill"
"I rather lay here slowly dying"
"Stop being dramatic. I will get Mickey and Luke.."
"OKAY! I'll go! Just please not them they will drag me across the floor to the kitchen" he laughed.
"Just...have you seen him. Have you talked to him..where's he go, is he okay. Is he still mad?" Niall's expression looked broken as he spoke.
"Harry is okay- act silly he's an emotional wreck. Mickey talked to him an he's pretty upset. He's not as mad anymore he's more hurt and heart broken. He went up to the roof yesterday to think about things."
"What kind of things?"
"If you come outside Mickey will eventfully tell you"
"Okay fine..is he here?" He stayed silent.
"NI please tell me, I deserve to know where he is right now"
"He's here..."
"The no, I can't go. I'll either break down or kill him I c-can't"
"Then you leave me no choice.." He pressed a button on his phone that signaled Luke and Mickey to rush in and forcefully grab me and push me off the bed.
"GET UP!" They yelled. I slowly got up and fixed my clothes.
"Your not aloud to be sad or angry..not until you eat food."
"I don't want to I'm not hungry..him being hear I'll probably throw up whatever I eat."
"Worth a try C" they hug me as I try not to break down.
"Were here for you okay..but for him too. He's jut as bad as you are right now believe me, he's just extremely good at hiding it."
"Sounds like him..good at being sneaky and hiding emotions..."
"Luke and Niall will go set up your food. You and me will walk out toge-"
"No..I have to do this alone. I can't possibly face him bravely if everyone is acting weird and walking me places. Let's just..act normal! Everything is normal everything is fine! Nothing a changed.." I put on my best poker face and barely get dressed. Everyone else leaves the room leaving me alone. I stand I front of the mirror now eating my black jeans and while shirt, hair in a loose ponytail...bags under my eyes...tear tracks in my face..bloodshot eyes....broken expression....Fake smile.
Here goes nothing, I walk out to the diner room not making eye contact with anybody in the room, I can see him looking at me with disgust from the corner I my eye, holding back the urge to just curl up in a ball. I sit down and stare at my plate a sliding everyone and everything.
"Glad you decided to come eat C" Niall said sitting in front of me.
"I'm not that hungry actually" I could smell his scent from what felt like miles away, my face was probably bright red and flushed. Either way, it's not like I have a boyfriend to look good for right?

"Caitlyn you have to eat something or you'll disintegrate!" Mickey argues.
"Might as well.." I shutter.
"Look whose trying to pull the innocent heartbreak card- ridiculous" I slam my hands on the table shooting up from my chair, finally meeting his gaze.
"IM SORRY! But some of us actually care about relationships and when they lose them they get a little bummed, so I I'm not hungry, I'm not hungry- in like you I actually CARED about the last TWO YEARS!" My outburst caused everyone to become extremely silent. He looked scared yet satisfied at my reaction.
"Right.. Cared enough to kiss another gu-"
"You know what Harry! Fine! He kissed me- but we are FUCKING HUMAN BEINGS who make mistakes and your not Mr. Perfect fucking Angel anyways"   I say as I storm off slamming the door. No, he is not worth my tears, time or temper! He deserves nothing! That isn't the Harry I knew two years ago, last month, yesterday morning..this Harry was a piece of shit that didn't deserve anything from me. Suddenly he bursts through the door slamming it shut.
"GOD! Can you just leave me alone your presence is torture enough!"
"I came to say it's over"
"yeah um I kinda knew that.."
"No like officially, I want nothing to do with you Caitlyn"
"OKAY COOL GREAT! You don't have to be mean about it okay?" He chuckled.
"But staff doesn't allow dorm switches so I'll still be sleeping here in this room" he scoffed.
"Why..why do I have to suffer"
"Because your the cheater, and this is my room too and I don't feel like moving"  everything that comes out of his mouth was a bullet to my soul.
"Then don't.. I'm sure I can find a nice couch to sleep on In here, I could care less" it's made him laugh.
"You know I'm  hurting too Cailtyn, deep down I'm really emotionally messed up right now- but I don't buy your bullshit for a second."
"You know for a second yesterday I thought that our love would of been strong enough...that there was a slimmer of hope left."
"Them I hope your used to being wrong" he said smirkingly as he got a call on his phone. He walked outside the door as I listened in on him talking.
"Hello? Oh hey Nadine..no nothing just finished eating...uh-huh...yup..oh really! How about tonight?....perfect....guess it's a date, see you then love"
I could literally feel my heart crack into a million pieces as my skin went pale and my bones bled I was physically enable to move or react to anything. Soon enough he came into the room to get his keys, but I was too captive to wen not or him saying my name.
"Caitlyn!! God your deaf!"
I could barely breathe. By the look on his face I think he knows I over heard- he looked almost as if he felt bad, he looked guilty he looked sad and he looked of compassion..but soon enough it was back to that plain emotionless expression.
"Don't be surprised love..I was going to move in eventually" that was it, the last thing I needed to fully encircle the whole reality of the situation. Those words were literally a dagger that completely went though my stomach, I physically felt it cut through my insides. Either All breathing with me ended or I was too numb to feel myself breathe. The way he looked at me alms or made it seem like he cared, but he stills managed to walk away leaving me motionless sitting there.
It was official...I lost Him