38. Dead to me

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Mickey's P.O.V

We pulled up in the dorm lot and started walking over.
"Hey M were gonna drop you off here and go back to get some stuff for the dorm management. Call us if you need anything okay?"
"Yeah thanks I'm tired anyways"
"see you in a bit"
"Love youuuu" they all shouted driving away. I must admit this's eking I felt like absolute shit but I feel a little better now. I climbed the stairs to realize our dorm door was already open. It was 10 pm so I instantly thought someone broke in. I close the door carefully and grab an umbrella next to the door ready to attack. In the silence, I got hear low...moans? I walk a little closer as they get louder to me instantly my heart rate increasing..they were coming from my room! Terrified to see what was happening I whack open the door with the umbrella- where I saw probably the most horrifying image I have ever witnessed in my life. I dropped the umbrella as the blood rushed all throughout my body bubbling in anger. There he was, the Ass himself, doing what I feared he would do most.
"WHAT THE HELL" they quickly pull apart covering themselves, but they can't cover their sins.
"Oh no.." Luke's face immediately drops as all color drains from his skin.
"Hey there Michelle, coulda give us some privacy were kinda in the middle of something here.."
"I see that..." I say as my tears of rage mix in with my tears of heart break.
"M-Mitchie I-"
"DONT! Don't you EVER call me that ever AGAIN! You don't deserve it! The only people who can call me that in life are the people who earned it! And your nothing but a meaningless piece of shit!"
"I-I'm sorry I-"
"You! Get the hell out of my house, RIGHT NOW! Unless you want to shove this umbrella down your throat" i saw throwing her clothes at her as she quickly ran away out the dorm. Luke slowly got up dressing himself. He walked towards me but I stopped him swiftly slapping his left cheek.
"How. Dare. You"
"We were broken u-"
"I DONT CARE" I say letting the tears flood down.
"Why would you do this to me..I get it, we broke up. You didn't want me in your life, I still don't know what happened but you wanted me gone. But whatever I did to you, I didn't deserve this. You were sleeping with her?"
He stood there, his face dark red as he looked down to the ground.
"LOOK AT ME" he refused to look at me in the eyes.
"I loved you..I still did. A month ago I did, this morning I did, five minutes ago I did."
"And now?"
"Now...now you can rot in hell" I say walking away. His arm grabbed me turning me around to face him.
"Look you c-can't be mad okay, we aren't t-together!"
"Yes Luke we aren't together, I get it you've made that crystal clear. But can you at least tell me what I did that made you hate me so much"
"I just..I don't hate you I'm just hurt"
"YOU ARE! ...Luke I just walked in on the supposedly love of my life having sex with another girl. How's that for hurt? But sorry, I forget- I was just a practice my bad, I'm forgetful"
"Don't come with that Bullshit"
"NO THE ONLY BULLSHIT HERE IS YOU LUKE! EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU IS SHIT!"
"And all you were was A MISTAKE!" In that moment, I truly knew. It was over.
"Wait..I-didn't mean that-"
"Oh no Luke, you did. But it's okay! Your not the only guy to say that to me in my life, your down a looooong looong line of guys that thought I was a mistake. I GET IT LUKE! Me being out on this earth was a fucking mistake."
He scoffed angrily.
"But it's alright, because if you were looking to get me out of your way forever, them congratulations you've accomplished something in life. Because I'm done"
"Yeah we've kinda been done for a couple days Michelle"
"No Luke I mean done with all this. I'm done caring and loving people just to end up hurt in the end. Always getting left behind, always getting the worst of life. Well I'm over it, emotions are fucking worthless! All they do I come back to bite you in the ass"
"Well then what are waiting for just leave already, nobody is asking you to stay anyways!" Never in my life did I even imagine those words coming out of Luke's mouth. Never did I imagine he would do such a cruel and vicious thing to me, but hey, people change.
"You say I changed, I became a monster? Well the only monster here is you..and the one you've created"
"So this is it, this is where you finally accept that we are over?"
"Go ahead Luke, sleep with as many sluts as you want. But me? Don't count on seeing me ever again. Because I don't want to be anywhere near you. "
"Good, I don't want you around"
"What happened to you..."
"I realized what a self absorbed bitch you are..and I'm still waiting for you to finally leave me alone for good"
"Fine, I'll leave! But I just want you to know that I hate you. I hate you Luke hemmings, and I will hate you forever and I will NEVER forgive you for what you've done to me, you have broken me. And your dead to me" with that said I pushed past him, grabbing clothes, my phone, a granola bar and my box of razors-heading out the door. On my way down I ran into someone.
"Whoa!! M where are you going??"
"As FAR AWAY from him as I can!!"
"Hey! HEY! Where do you think your going come back here! MICKEY!"
Too late, I got in my car and sped away, far far away. Who needs goodbyes, who needs friends, all I need is myself.
I was long gone, and so is the Mickey everyone knew, she's dead, all that's left is an empty soulless body-and a whole lot of Hate for Hemmings.

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