It's a love/hate Relationship (sequel) After Amnesia

45. What youve become

Mickey's P.O.V

"And I think I should've been there more..no that's not good. I promise to pay more attention! Nope that not good either...." Luke would be here any minute and I was practicing what to say to him in the mirror. I've been such a wreck and there 99.9% chance Luke and I don't get back together and I completely embarrass myself, and a 1% that gives me hope. Nothing seemed right to say, it was either not enough or too much. I just wanted to fix things...I'm a mess and he's a mess and of course I'm furious for what he did but anger isn't gonna solve anything. I heard the front door open, my everything froze as I trembled to face him. I slowly walked outside to hear cabinets and drawers being slammed shut and vicious eating with the clanking of forks against a platter. I slowly approach Luke, distantly.
"H-hi Luke" he looks up and rolls his eyes.
"Ugh..you. Listen I'm not in the mood today to deal with your bullshit" his words are slurred but only slightly.
"Your drunk"
"No dip Sherlock, now go away" this was going to be a whole lot harder than I thought it was going to be.
"Actually I wanted to talk to you" he grabbed a beer from the fridge and stood in front of the counter.
"I don't wanna talk to you..go away"
"Luke I'm serious I really- can you jut out the damn drink down" bad start M.
"You were always so pushy, everything I did was bad, so judgmental" he said angrily.
"Luke I never judged you.."
"And you know what else- you alway contradicted me. CONSTANTLY! It was SOO aggravating. Sure as hell am not gonna miss that" he was raising his voice angrily as he would come closer.
"Luke, calm down okay. I just wanna talk to you for a second"
"What if i don't want to? What if I don't feel like wasting my time?" He was now red and sweaty, his voice full of anger and tensity..terrifyingly reminding me of him, the way he would scream in my face very much like Luke was now.
"Luke please I'm dime fighting with you I just want to talk things out...and your kinda scaring me"
"GOOD! Maybe you'll actually LEAVE" he raised his hand and I closed my eyes wincing in fear. Suddenly as I opened my eyes I saw a rage ful Luke.
"..you actually think I would hit a girl?"
"N-nothing you haven done before. Plus I can't even get a sentence out without you screaming at me..."
"My God Mickey would you just leave me alone! DONT YOU REALIZE THE LAST PERSON I WANNA SEE RIGHT NOW IS YOU!!"
"You know I actually wanted to fix things between us. I came to apologize but..your just a DRUNK LUNATIC!"
"GET THE HELL OUT!" He forcefully flung the bottle in his hand towards me, the glasses shattering all over the wall as the liquid dripped down burning my skin, as I felt my left cheek burn from a glass that cut it..I fearfully reach my hand over it as a flood of blood falls into my hand. I was in absolute fear of Luke. I wanted to fix things but now I'm too afraid to be near him to try, I can feel the tears burning the cut as the blood runs down my face.
I fearfully look up to Luke as I hold my bleeding cheek, him with a look of equal horror. He starts waking towards me slowly.
"M-Mickey I-"
"STAY AWAY! Don't...come near me..."
"Y-you don't have to be afraid...I would never hurt you, y-you know that" he said as he comes near me, I turn my head in dear as he swipes is thumb over my cut, I wincing in pain as a sad whimper escapes his mouth.
"Please..stay away from me"
"Mickey I'm so sorry"
"GET AWAY!!" I say running towards the door afraid of what he might do. He grips onto my arm forcefully turning me around.
"Please don't leave!!"
"Luke your hurting my arm let go" he quickly let go of me.
"I'm sorry, are you okay?" He says reaching towards me.
"No..don't touch me. You are a MONSTER, your heartless cold excuse of a man your...your..." He looks down as tears drip from his cheeks.
"Your....your no better than he was" before he could say or hurt me anymore I ran away to the roof, far far away from the monster that he was. He hurt me..not only emotionally but physically. I wanted to fix things but being near him is far to dangerous. He needs to stay away..far far away.