It's a love/hate Relationship (sequel) After Amnesia

46. Elevators

Luke's P.O.V
[to make the first part of this chapter even more emotional insert song invisible by 5SOS]

I watched her run away from me in fear. I thought she was a liar, but the only liar here was me. I promised her that if she woke up I would never again let my anger get in the way of her safety. Once again, she was hurt, in danger, and afraid because of me. I look in the mirror and I don't even recognize myself. Lucas Robert Hemmings...crystal blue eyes and smiling face..Lucas Robert Hemmings..a psychopathic drunk that hurts everyone around him, especially the one girl he love most. I bet she was trying to tell me that she still loved me, that she wanted to fix things..what did I do? I scarred her face..the look I horror she gave me- the way her body trembled at my presence of fear..
"YOUR A MONSTER!" I say angrily punching the mirror.
"LOOK AT YOURSELF! Bloody hands! Alcohol stains..alone in an empty house. YOUR NO BETTER THAN HIM!" I slid down the wall a tears brimmed my eyes. Even Mickey thinks terrible of me. I hurt her- again. I should've fixed things before Savanna..I should've fixed things before I betrayed her the way I did. I should've...I should've meet broken up with her. I still care about her..I still love her, MICHELLE KRISTEN IRWIN
The fucking love of my life. I screwed it up for good. I went wrong too many times with her, I went wrong too many times in life, the most important person I my life is now gone and all I have left is me and my regrets. I don't even know myself anymore, without her I am nobody, without her I am the ashes of a burn down building- without her I am incomplete. And I just wish I would of just stopped being such a Screw up in life and realized How Stupid I truly am. I never stopped loving her and I just wanna hold her and kiss her and protect her and love her. I want things to be normal again but I know they can't because I am a monster, a beast. I don't deserve love. I don't deserve her. And my Beauty is too  scared of me for me to even talk to her. But I'm going to do what she don't get the chance to- I'm gonna try my best to make things right because damn it I love her! And just one kiss from her lips and I know everything will be okay. All I need is to hold her one more time..
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Mickey's P.O.V

I couldn't dare sleep in the same dorm as him tonight, who knows what hell do to me next. I can feel a scar forming in the far corner if my face as I sit against the cold pavement. I must go home, but I hear everyone coming back so sneak back into the house to get some things. I make my way over to my room when I feel a hand in my shoulder. I scream turning around as Luke puts a hand over my mouth.
"Please don't be afraid, shhh I would never ever hurt you I promise" his hands were bloody and covered in glass
Suddenly Harry rushes through the door.
"I heard a scream!!! Mickey!!" He sees me, looks over to Luke, over to my cheek, and back to Luke as his eyes rage to a dark Hazel. He rushed over to Luke pinning him against the wall as Caitlyn and I try to calm him down.
"IF YOU EVER FUCKING TOUCH HER AGAIN I SWEAR I WILL PERSONALLY FUCK YOU UP WITH MY OWN BARE HANDS HEMMINGS" he says throwing him on the floor, he goes to swing at him but Caitlyn grabs his fist stopping him.
"I didn't want to hurt her I swear! I would never hurt you Mickey!!"
"It's all you've been doing lately!"
"I'm sorry!!" He gets out of Harry's grasp, walking toward me I panick and run out of the dorm toward the elevators, rapidly hitting the button a million times, Luke screaming my name gets louder and louder as his hands throw open the elevator as he steps in, it closes- leaving the two of us.
"Please don't come near me!!"
"Mickey Stop it!" I say grabbing her hands pinning her against the wall.
"Look at me! Not at me lately, not me from the past but ME. Look in my eyes, tell me you don't recognize my eyes.." Her fear quiets down as her eyes are soothed by the memory of us.
"I hope you realize were stuck in this elevator..and I'm cloister phobic" she says trying to get me off of her.
"And I'm here for you"
"DONT! You can't do that! You can't disappear from my life, make it a living hell and the just expect to be accepted back in! Things don't work that way!"
"Mickey..I'm really sorry. Okay I know I messed up big time, I hurt you so much but I want you to know that seeing you hurt because of me killed me inside"
"Well you have a funny way of showing it...attacking me and shit"
"Mickey.." I said sitting us down.
"Ask me why I broke up with you"
"Why? A question that's been haunting me. What did I do to you!?"
"You...are Michelle Irwin. You are the epitome of a woman. I am Luke Hemmings..I am the defenition of a teenage screw up. That alone is enough to haunt me"
"Never bothered you before"
"Well that's the thing, I'm an idiot. I over exaggerate about everything and I hurt the people I most love in life while I'm at it" she looked down.
"And savanna"
"Oh my God Mickey you were never the mistake, she was. If I could go back and earase everything I did I would but I can't. I'm just a guy begging, pleading for your forgiveness. And I know I don't deserve it at all but Mickey I love you.. I LOVE YOU"
"No you don't..if you loved me you would've ended this a long time ago"
"A long time ago I wasn't myself, I was a brain washed idiot that didn't appreciate the life he had. "
"A long time ago I still loved you Luke. Why wasn't that enough?"
"Do you love me..or have I completely ruined us forever" I let the tears brim down my face as she stared at me.
"You wanna see something Luke.." I look over at her as se lifts up her sleeve..revealing 15 slashes on her arm.
"No....please Mickey no.."
"That's EVERYTIME I've been tempted to tell you I loved you..or loved you so much it hurt..or didn't love you enough"
"Mickey...I know I am the worlds worst man..and you probably hate me- but I love you..so please forgive me."
"Luke you hurt me."
"I know..I'm so so so so so so sorry"
"But I never stopped loving you"
"What.."
"Our love was so strong that it kept us here. We could've just drifted farther apart until we forgot each other's names but here we are, trapped in an elevator together saying our sorrows.."
"Will you ever forgive me.."
"I forgive you Luke. I've always had a habit of forgiving you" she grabbed my hand. I let the sobs fly out of me like an airplane as she held me in her arms.
"I missed you..So much. I don't ever wanna be let again Mitchie, I felt in complete, empty. I love you so much I will NEVER let you go again. "
"I missed you too Lucas, more than you think I did"
"Lucas....my God have a needed to hear that lately."
"Were going to fix things, I promise"
"I love you so much Luke, don't ever doubt that"
"I love you too Mitchie. And I never stopped" and with that finally- after what felt like eternity, what felt like a million years, our lips were reunited.
Lucas and Mickey- nothing in this world cold ever keep us apart. That is now a fact proven by the universe. I mean hey..I was in his loving arms once more wasn't I! And it felt like  could finally breathe again.