It's a love/hate Relationship (sequel) After Amnesia

33. Everyone is running

Caitlyn's P.O.V

"That's why" I wanted to ask a million questions but I was too emotionally absorbed to even find the words to explain everything in my mind. After a while at just staring at each other I finally came up with something.
"Rider, I need you. A couple months ago I would've hated the thought if you but now it's like your my best Friend. And that isn't a good enough reason to leave me when I need you"
"Caitlyn Please just go back inside before I kiss you again."
"Then do it! Kiss me! If that's what it takes to keep you in my life than go ahead, it's not like I have a boyfriend you need to run from!"
"That's the problem Caitlyn! You don have a boyfriend because I fucked up- and as much as I love you and want to fill his shoes-I never could. And if you have any chance to ever be with him again.....we have to stay away from each other."
"Rider, I love you too. Isn't that enough? For you to just be there for me like the friend you are.."
"No Caitlyn, because I don't love you. I love you. To the point that if this friendship is ever going to work I need to get those feeling out of my head. That's impossible seeing your beautiful face everyday, no man stealing you for me. All the thoughts I have when I look at you....are just reasons why I have to go. I'm doing this for us Caitlyn...I'm doing this for you" and with that he ran away until his body was so far in the distant it was smaller than an ant.
Rider could be there for me and still be in love with me! He could have just stayed with me. I was overwhelmed by everything, we kissed-again. This time I didn't feel gilt or remorse because I wouldn't have to hide from anyone. And do I have feeling for Rider deep down inside, of course but right now..I still have feeling for Harry. And I guess Rider is doing the right thing it's just- I wish he would get over me so he could be there for me and hold me and tell em everything is going to be okay..but then I remembered someone who could. I go back inside and see everyone has dispersed to their rooms. I walk over to Mickey's room to find the exact person I was looking for.
"Caitlyn, what happened?"
"Where's M?"
"She's taking a shower"
"Good, I wanted to talk to you"
"Anything C, tell Old Lucas what's going on." I sat down next to him as he handed me a bag of chips.
"Harry has a girlfriend now..that's shitty itself but- I wish I could just them both in my life again!"
"Both?"
"Rider..he says we can't be friends until he gets his feeling clear"
"Are your feelings clear?"
"Yes! I'm clear that Harry has changed, and I'm clear that I want the old him back! And I'm clear that I like Rider..just as friends tho. Idk he just has a way with him, captures my attention.." Luke smiled.
"Here's your thing C..he's new. Everything new has such appeal more than the old. I'm not saying you liked him more than Harry, I'm saying that you can't control your emotions."
"Is that why you hate Kaleb?"
He stayed quiet for a bit frowning.
"I dont hate Kaleb..I hate The thought of Mickey with him. Everyone gets tempted once in a while C.."
"Have you, with Savanna?"
"No..because I look at Savanna and all I want is Mickey. But that's just because I've got the best girlfriend ever."
"Well what do I do with all these confused emotions!"
"I say, give Rider his time. Accept this breakup- go with the flow of life."
"How? He was the love of my life L.."
"Well maybe Harry was the love of your life..but sometimes love can be a bitch. I've caught myself many times watching Mickey slowly leave my grasp and I try to keep cool just for her but..eventually we all have to face the reality of Love."
"Which is?"
"No matter how much you think their the one..sometimes their not. Their just the experience preparing you for it."
"Wise words with Lucas haha" we laughed but suddenly his expression froze. I heard footsteps leave the dorm room.
"M! WAIT!" He said rushing out the room frantically screaming her name.

......What the hell happened behind me...?