Stupid... worthless... disabled... cow... freak... ugly... fat...
The words still stuck in my head. i wanted to cut and release the pain the words were doing to me.
I got up off my bed. It was the middle of the night already. After putting my leg on, I walked towards the bathroom and walked in, searching for some sort of blade to use on my skin. I soon found one, one of Dan's refills. I took it out the package and put it to my skin.
"This is because of my dad, George and Rhianna," I whisper and then slit my wrists on my left wrist.
I watched as the blood left my wrists. I was on my sixth cut on my arm when I heard a knock, "Lexi? Are you in there?"
I said nothing. I didn't want Phil to know I was in here.
"Lexi?" His voice was panicked as he tried at the door which I had locked.
"Go away!" I yelled
"Lexi... what are you doing?" his voice was panicked as he spoke.
"What's right for everyone and so everyone is happy!" I cried, beginning to slit again.
I heard Phil yell for Dan. I heard Dan cone down the stairs. I heard Phil talking to Dan. I heard my dads begin to crash at the door.
The door has to open and Dan comes in and scoops me up. I wail out as Phil takes the blade away and examines my arm.
He see's all ten of my cuts, "Lexi... why?"
"Because of everything..." I whispered as Dan sat me on the edge of the bath and took a towel to stop the blood, "The voices... the words... George... Rhianna... my dad... the memories... they were haunting me and I had to release the pain deep inside of me somehow..."
Dan pulled me into a deep hug, "You should have woken me up baby girl... told me how you were feeling..."
"I know... but I couldn't..." I said, "I was scared."
We all walked into the living room, Dan carrying me in his arm. When I was sat down, I did nothing, just sat on the sofa and stayed very still.
"Lexi are you ok?" Phil puts his hand on my leg and I shake my head slightly.
"Why what's wrong?" He took my hand and squeezed it.
"I feel so lost..." I say quietly, "I feel as though even though I'm here... I shouldn't. I feel as though I am alive when I shouldn't be..."
"Please don't think that..." Dan says, sitting next to me after getting me a glass of water.
"Thanks..." I say quietly and sip the water slowly.
Bit in my head... the words repeated themselves.
Stupid... worthless... disabled... cow... freak... ugly... fat...
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I KNOW THIS CHAPTER IS SHORT BUT IT IS 2016 IN 30 MINUTES FOR ME!! 🎉
Happy New Year guys and may it be good!!
Hannah xx
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Rescued by Dan and Phil
Fanfiction[Book 1 of 3] Lexi is 14 years old and lives in a care-home. She was dumped there a year ago after being beaten by her own dad 24/7. Lexi has only one friend in care who is Josh, a 15 year old boy who is gay and bullied for that around the care-home.
