Book 3: TWO WORLDS: The Beginning of the End (On Going)

BDC Chapter 19

Feb 6, 2016

"Unnie, sorry I'm late. I was caught in the middle of the traffic" Taeyeon explained as soon as she entered the cafe, Boa on the other hand smiled before shaking her head and patting her shoulder motioning her that it's alright. "It's alright.. it's not like there's a lot of customes today" Boa said and Taeyeon then gave her a bow again.
"I still apologize unnie.. I'm going to get changed now' Taeyeon said and Boa nodded her head. Soon after, Taeyeon left and entered the locker room. Setting her things down, Taeyeon stopped as soon as she noticed the coat Baekhyun gave her, sitting down, she held it and took a closer look.
Smiling a little, Taeyeon folded it nicely as she hid it inside her locker.
The whole afteroon was spent that way, it's not Taeyeon complains about it but instead she's thankful that she got a chance to work for Boa knowing that the woman is kind enough to treat her like her younger sister. Finally after the tiring day of work, Taeyeon sighed and wiped her forehead getting her work done.
"Isn't Byun Baekhyun going to pick you up?" Boa's voice asked out of the blue causing Taeyeon to flinch. Turning around, Taeyeon smiled a little before shaking her head and wiping her hands against her pants. "No unnie, what you think is wrong. We're just friends" Taeyeon said and Boa chuckled before walking closer to Taeyeon.
"Alright if you say so.. but don't you think it's about time for you to open your heart to someone?" Boa asked while giving Taeyeon a warm smile and the latter only nodded her head in response. She would be lying if she says that she isn't scared but why would she open her heart when nobody would want to have their way in?
"I'm just waiting for the right time unnie and besides I still have to take care of myself.. and dad" Taeyeon said and Boa nodded her head, she felt sorry for Taeyeon knowing that Taeyeon's still young yet she owns every responsibility her parents should have carried. Adding to that, Taeyeon's been miserable too.
"Speaking of your dad, how is he?" Boa asked and Taeyeon smiled before shaking her head. "Still the same.." She muttered and Boa sighed before lightly patting the latter's shoulder.
"Everything would be alright.." Boa said as she went back to the counter and Taeyeon finished her work before entering the locker room. Getting her things up, Taeyeon went out and looked up in the sky. The stars weren't visible and Taeyeon knew that those clouds are blocking the stars.
Walking, Taeyeon felt something wet against her skin and looking up. Raindrops started to fall and Taeyeon ran to the nearest shed, letting out a deep sigh, Taeyeon took a seat on the bench and waited for the bus.
Raindrops started to pour out that even the windows are getting blurry already and feeling tired enough, Taeyeon just leaned her head against the window with her hand pressed against it. The ride wasn't long enough and Taeyeon finally arrived at her apartment, still raining, Taeyeon brought the coat Baekhyun lend her and ran towards her apartment. Finally being able to settle inside, Taeyeon removed the coat that was protecting her from getting wet earlier and sighed as she saw it got damped.
Going to her own unit, Taeueon opened the door and darkness greeted her. As tiredness dominated her body, Taeyeon decided not to turn on the lights anymore as she made her way to her own room, she let herself fall on the bed as she stared at the ceiling and sighed.
Feeling her eyelids get heavy, Taeyeon let sleep fully take over her.
Thunder roars and lightning strikes causing her small petite bosy to shiver in fear, no, she didn't like these kind of things happening. It scares her, it scares every being of her. Taeyeon covered her ears as the rumbling continued, painful memories stated to play on her mind again as Taeyeon whimpered in fear.
Tears flowed out her eyes as she crouched on her bed flinching everytime there's a loud thunder. Taeyeon tried hard to prevent herself from crying further, but no, even when she tried her best not to, those tears come out uncontrollably and Taeyeon hated it.
You're weak.
Her father's words ranng through her ears causing Taeyeon to cover her ears more and tightened her grip around her hair. Taeyeon continued to sob as she heard a faint noise not far from her, sobbing hard, Taeyeon reached out for her phone and answered the call.
"Taeyeon, are you alright?" Yoona's worried voice greeted her and Taeyeon bit her lower lip preventing herself from sobbing but she failed as she sniffed suddenly. She hated it, knowing that Yoona knows what's happening to her and yet Yoona's going to see her weak side again.
She doesn't want that.
She doesn't want Yoona to see her cry again.
"Hey.. speak to me" yoona said and Taeyeon breathed deeply before answering Yoona with her hoarse voice.
"Y-Yoona.." Taeyeon said as she broke down again. As much as she hated it, Taeyeon knew that if she'll continued to hide the fear building up inside her mind and heart again, she might go crazy this time and after all, Yoona saw her cry a hundred times already.
It's just that she feels burdened everytime she sees Yoona helping her carry those.
"You're crying again aren't you?" Yoona asked and Taeyeon nodded her head as if the latter can see her. "I'm sorry.." Taeyeon faintly said as she heard Yoona sigh on the other line.
"I'll be there in a few.. don't do something stupid" Yoona stated then she hang up not waiting for Taeyeon to answer back anymore. Taeyeon on the other hand tried to stop her sobs and wipe her tears away before Yoona could even see it. Soon, she heard knocks on the door.
Hurriedly, Taeyeon opened the door and saw Yoona standing there.
"Are you alright?" Yoona's worried voice asked and that made Taeyeon nod her head and cry again. Yoona, not wanting to see Taeyeon cry again came in and hugged her friend as tight as she can. She's already used to it, she knows how Taeyeon cries herself to sleep at night or if not, how Taeyeon suffers not sleeping just because she woke up crying.
People may have stated that Taeyeon's a tough one but that's because Taeyeon makes sure that all her tears are gone before she even takes a step inside the school. They never noticed the tired eyes Taeyeon has everytime she goes to school early, they don't notice how she eats unusually, they don't notice how Taeyeon continues to drop down day by day yet they still judge for for not making them see her weakness.
"Yoona.. I'm tired.." Taeyeon said and Yoona felt herself tearing up. Every time, every single time Yoona hears this from Taeyeon, she can't do anything but to tear up knowing that Taeyeon wants to give up her miserable life already. She knows how tough the road Taeyeon is going through right now and Yoona hates the fact that Taeyeon doesn't even understand what happiness is anymore.
"Shh, don't say that. You already told me once that you're going to get through with this, where's the strong Taeyeon I know?" Yoona asked as she turned the light on and saw how swollen Taeyeon's eyes are. She sighed, even when Taeyeon rarely cries without any justifiable reason she knows how hard Taeyeon cries if it happens. Leading them to the couch, Yoona sat beside Taeyeon and observed her friend's face.
"I just don't understand myself anymore, one minute I felt like I'm strong enough to prevent myself from crying then later I would end up curling at the corner of my room bawling my eyes out" Taeyeon said as she sighed.
"Maybe because you need to just let it out. Maybe because you've been holding up a lot of things inside you lately that it starts to fill up your heart and mind, don't you think it's the right time to just be yourself? Cry if you want to, it's not a sin" Yoona said and Taeyeon bit her lower lip before massaging her forehead.
Will she be able to do that?
Because for her faking her smile is much more easier than letting herself cry. Especially infront of people. Composing herself, Taeyeon wiped her tears away and faked a smile.
"I'm going to be weak if I do so.."

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A/N: I hope you understand Taeyeon's character here ><
and I don't know why the hell I can carry out not writing any fluff! Urgh, I swear I'll commit suicide if I won't be able to write some tomorrow.
*gets some knife in the kitchen*
*sees it's sharp point*
Maybe I'll just peel the apple ^^
*gets an apple in the kitchen*
who wants?
annyeong!