(Holland)
"Round two?" Samantha from chemistry asked me as I got dressed in the supply closet. I'm not even embarrassed because ever since the nook I've seen spiralling as Killian likes to call it. There's just so many girls. Why would I ever want just one girl went there so much ground to cover still.
"No, I have a game"
"Text me when you want to do this again"she said stepping closer to me and handing me a paper with her number which was ready for some reason
"Thanks" I answered gently moving her far back enough for me to go past and open the door fixing my hair and passing people in the crowd to saying excuse me
"Sorry, excuse me"
"Excuse me"
"Sorry excuse me" I said using someone's shoulder to push past but the second my fingers brushed on her shoulder I felt an oh too familiar charge of energy rush through my body as I stopped and made eye contact with.. Her.
I've seen her around school but I get all weird inside so I look away and that's how I've been surviving these past days. And now I see her smiling and laughing with we friends and some ... Some guy who I would be lying I that I didn't see on her snapchats and threw my phone at the wall luckily no breaks.
"Sorry" she said before turning away from me and paying attention to.. Who ever he is.
Immediately the temperature got hotter as I started feeling dizzy while I made my way to the field. What is she doing here?
The crowd got louder as I stepped out on the field . My coach was yelling for me to run but I walked and gave a weak wave to the crowd. I felt like my throat was closing and it got harder to breath by the time I sat down beside Killian
"Hey.. You okay?" I asked
"Is that guy her boyfriend?" I asked him quickly trying to find a position where I don't feel like I'm drowning. That the fuck is wrong with me.
"Oh uh no, I don't think so I'm pretty sure they dance with each other or something.. But he does like her it's a date after all" he answered me
"I can't breath" I said getting up and going off field beside the bleachers. I held onto the bars of the bleachers and tried to clam down out of all things out of all places this.
"How can I help.. I don't know what to do" Killian said and now I could see Kats shoes
"Get away" I breathed pushing my helmet off and throwing it on the ground sinking to the floor.
"Your hyperventilating relax Holland" Karltrina said in front of my
"Can everyone just" I breathed
"Back off" I pushed out
I lifted my jersey up to get some air but it was no use, I had all my equipment on.
"He just needs to play it out, this happens" I heard my mom say to Killian as fire fighters dropped the bags near me. Great job Holland. Making a scene.
"What's you name buddy. Let's calm down" a firefighter said while four others surrounded me
"Space! Please" I tried but it was covered by the heavy breaths until I heard someone who finally got it.
"Holland?" Kim's voice called as I looked and motioned for her to come over
"We need to-"
"Can you guys back off for a second, it's a panic attack and surrounding him with your bodies and bags isn't helping him" she said before she sat on a bar beside me
