I woke up pretty early before everyone and went for a little morning hike to clear my head. Leslie was talking about how she wants Killian to be her first and I wasn't expecting to hear or want to hear at all. I just I don't know what to do with that, or these feelings.
So last night I left the room and went to see Jacob. We decided to go for a walk and we did, around the main road. It was nice to just talk to him and chill and it was cool to take sweet photos out at night but then we found a cool rock and when we were sitting on it we started to kiss. It was wrong because I don't want to lead him on and I almost stopped it. Until I opened my eyes and there he was. Starring at us for some reason out on the road. Did he follow us? He wouldn't look away and I didn't stop. I knew I was hurting him but I didn't stop I deepened the kiss making sure he feels exactly how I feel when he's with her. I closed my eyes and when the opened he was gone, vanished. And I was left feeling like I was a bad person, wondering what he was thinking, or if he was even really there.
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I heard showers going and a few whispers and slowly people started coming down but we all waited for Kim since she's the only one who can really cook with out following a recipe. But she got back really early I think I saw her sneak back into the room at 4 am and she took a shower before so she must have not slept till five. I scrolled on my phone and texted my parents an update before looking at the time and it was already eleven and we were all starving.
"Okay I'm waking the loser up" I said
"I can cook guys! Egg whites, tofu salad, gluten free fat free pancakes anyone?" She asked
"Their coming soon" Killian said coming down the stairs, he's eyes met mine for a split second before signalling to the door.
"I'll be back" I said to Nat before following him out of the house.
"Everything okay?" I asked
He looked at me furiously, grabbing my arm he led me down a trail until we were surrounded by trees and bushes, we couldn't even see the house
"Killian stop" I said
"So what are you and Jacob a thing now? Because I saw you! I saw you yesterday outside" he said
"What did it give you some kind of high knowing I was watching because you saw me, you saw me and you knew what it would do to me and you continued anyways!" He ranted
"Yeah" I nodded amused
"Yeah what?" He asked
"Yeah I thought it was hot seeing you just watching us, kissing, you were thinking that you wish it was you weren't you? You wanted to be up on that rock with me, right? And it hurt didn't it? Watching me give attention to someone else?" I asked him stepping closer to him
"Y-yes"
"But then you should remember, Killian kohl" I said stepping right against him and leaning to his ear
