(Holland)
The house was pretty quiet after the whole game everyone's just chilling on their own and I'm pretty sure Killian and Leslie went to talk so it could get pretty awkward if a break up is going to happen.
Kim slept on my chest as I scrolled through Instagram and Twitter bored out of my mind. My mind traveled to how the team has the last game before playoffs next week at school, and its spirit week which means everyone's counting on me as captain.
"Hey" Kat said at the doorframe
"Hey are you okay? That was, intense" I said
"Yeah it was.. Is she sleeping" Kat asked me
"Yeah but you can wake her up, she wanted to talk to you anyway" I said
"Yeah I know she texted me before, I also can't go back to the girl room, not after.."
"No I understand, wake her up, I was going to go out anyways, stay and talk to her" I said smiling
"Thanks Holland" she said helping me move her off of me, I grabbed a random shirt and left them in my room when I got down stairs all the lights were off except of one in the distance. The garage light was on and sitting looking out into the storm was my best friend. The things I do for this guy.
I opened the door and ran across the beach, down the road and into the garage while rain and hail hit me and light night struck everywhere.
"Holland?' He asked when I was almost here
"Oh shit that's cold" I said drenched in water
"Your crazy" he said
"I wanted to check on you, everything that happened in there" I said pulling up a chair beside him
"She broke up with me" Killian said
"What? Man, I'm sorry, that's a tough blow"
"Is it? She wanted to try again and then I said some stuff about what happened-"
"What really did happen?" I asked
He took a deep breath looking out into the storm
"When you guys left we made out and that was fine but then things started happening and there were of emotions .. And then we were on the bed and we were actually doing it and all my thoughts they just sprung out in one big word barf and it was her. She was controlling all my thoughts. Katrina was still in my mind even when Leslie was.. You know."
"Yeah I know you said her name but,"
"No didn't just say her name okay I said it at the exact same time she said I love you, holland see loves me and I'm here thinking about some girl I can never get"
"Oh" I said
"Yeah to make it worse when we stopped she was crying and I was in shock she was trying to figure out where she went wrong and I said something so mean and awful,"
"What did you say?" I asked
"I said .. It wasn't going that well anyway, and maybe we just don't.. Work that way"
My jaw dropped at that one, "I've been with my fair share of girls and I have had bad experiences I admit but not once have I told a girl that, that part of her was defective"
"I didn't say defective" he said
"You might as well. So is that why she broke up with you?" I asked
"No, she actually wanted to get back together and I thought about it. She begged me while we were talking but then I thought... Do I want to do this again? Love someone else while I'm dating someone I don't really like?" He asked
"She's mean, rude to my friends, she refers to she dad as 'daddy' not in a sweet way but a really disturbing way like he owns her. She's mean to anyone who doesn't fit her perfect radar, she's everything I don't like. She doesn't have any views on world issues, she thinks if it's not effecting her it doesn't matter, who thinks that?" He ranted
"But out of all that the scary part is those reasons didn't even matter compared to the one that did"he finished
"Katrina?"
"She's all I think about, I wake up to snap her and keep a streak, I've called her just to hear her voice and annoy her. I think of ways that I can see her and I practice what to say in my mirror so I don't mess it up. I ... I .. "
"You love her" I said
"Yeah, I think so I love her" he said
So you told Leslie that?"
"Yes, and then she told me there's another guy, they kissed and she feels things towards him, she yelled and cried and broke up with me, and I came here"
"Why here? Why not get the girl you obviously know you want?" I asked
"Look at me. I couldn't get her even in my dreams" he said
"That's not true,"
"Holland she has all the options in the world why would she pick me?"
"Because, maybe just maybe she loves you back" I said
"No, she's way out of my league, we're so different." He said
"Dude you can't tell her that I told you but Kat likes you, she really does. But for the same exact reason you think she's out of your league she thinks your too good for her, she doesn't think she can give you everything which she says you deserve for some reason" I joked about the lay part.
He laughed leaning on an old car as we both looked out at the storm coming to an end
"Thanks for this Holland" he said
"It's gonna be alright, I know it" I told him.
