The Life Of A Freak

Chapter 6

It was early morning now so we all went to our cells and slept. Well, eveyone but me. 

I didn't sleep. I went to my cell, yes, but I didn't sleep.

8 years of not sleeping, its hard to change. Yeah, I slept every other day. I have large bags under my eyes, and I look ugly because of them. The life of a freak ain't pretty.

Everyone needs to know that.

Your life may be pretty. It may be the best thing ever! But mine certainly isn't.

I had an awesome life, but not now.

I left that behind me. All of it. Even my love for Darren. My love for life even.

The thing about real life is if you make a mistake it usually costs you. In books the hero can make as many mistakes as they like. It doesn't matter what they do because it always works out in the end. They'll beat the bad guys and put things right and everything ends up cool. In real life vacuum cleaners kill spiders. If you cross a busy road without looking, you'll get whacked by a car. If you fall from a tree you break some bones. Real life is nasty. Its cruel. It doesn't care about heroes and happy endings and the way things should be. In real life bad things happen. People die. Fights are lost. Evil often wins.

It is a jerk. Nothing wins against life. Everyone dies at one point in time. Doesn't matter if they are nice or bad.

Good things happen to bad people and bad things to good people.

It's how life is.

Humans kill spiders yet they kill flys and other insects for them.

Yeah spiders are annoying, so are they but they are only following the way they always have survived.

Spiders make webs to catch bugs and eat them.

Why do humans get annoyed at such pointless things.

Ooo spiders are scary, learn to over come that fear for heaven's sake!

I have spent 8 years with Madam Octa! She is scary, but she can be trained!

I have spent most of my life with Drago (my snake that I gave to Evra). Most people fear snakes! Why?! Its pointless. Fearing this won't solve anything, yeah its a way of living, but why? You fear you'll die, what about instead of fearing the fact you'll die go live it to the fullest. Fearing death... Pointless.

To humans, they would say I'm crazy, I'm sure you do too, since you are human after all.

Life is pointless.

This is some dark shit right here.

Sorry. I guess everything is getting to me.

Nothing else could go wrong really.

I mean, Darren is going through the trials, and he could die, so not much could go wrong from here.

He may die that's the worst that could happen.

I hope.

Actually, I was thinking. (Not new I know but still)

What if vampaneze were in the mountain? It wouldn't be crazy or improbable.

I mean, we encountered some traces of vampaneze on our way to this mountain.

A dead body of a vampire and a vampaneze. The vampaneze was half buried someone had to have done it. I doubt he just fell and happened to get covered half way in snow.

Its unlikely that the vampaneze would go that far. Sneaking into Vampire Mountain is no easy job. It would be easier to try and lure us out of the mountain and get us there.

I hope I'm wrong and that there are not any here...

I sigh and start singing once again.

"Walking on the line directions leading to who knows where? Say you're doing fine but no one asked and no one cares~ Now I'm watching from the outside hear all the out cries but no one will lend a hand! Setting up another punchline and you're never in demand. You're on your own~ Such a damn shame man gotta break it to you. Give it some time and we'll all forget your face." I sing some more lyrics that I can manage to remember after all these years.

"Tux." I hear and look for the voice, Harkat. "Still can't... Sleep huh?"

"Nope." I say softly.

"Its almost... night again... you need... to sleep..." He says, pausing for a breath every couple words.

"I know. But I just can't."

"You have...a nice... voice..." He says.

"Thank you." I smile before laying back down and trying to falla asleep.

I look up at the ceiling. The rough, rocky, ceiling.

It takes me about thirty minutes but I fall asleep.

I dream of my life.

The way it should have been or could have been if I stayed home and didn't run away.

I would be in college right now. Learning about what ever I decided to major in.

I would have a boyfriend.

I would go to the cemetery and mourn for Darren when ever his birthday rolled around.

I would hang out with Steve, Alan, and Tommy.

I would hang out with Ethan.

I wouldn't be going through life or death situations. Boring, oh so boring, but... I would take a boring life over seeing my best friend struggle any day.