The Life Of A Freak

Chapter 12

Months passed after that. Most of the time I spent crying in my hammock, but when I did decide to actually leave and get food I made sure it was in the middle of day so I didn't see...him.

Though I did occasionally see him while I was on my way to the Hall of Oscar Velm.

He was usually with someone else and didn't notice me, though one time while he was walking with Larten I accidentally bumped into him and we had stood and stared at each other for a few seconds before continuing on.

I want to talk to him... I really do! But...I can't bring myself to look at him the same way I once did. He killed someone, but not just that, the person I had agreed to be best friends with just a few days before!

What were the chances of that anyway?

I am gonna talk to him, and today. I can't tomorrow, he'll be a Prince tomorrow...

Wiping away my dried up tears with some water that Harkat has left near my bed after the latest fit I've had - Harkat is the only person u have been ranting to, he is the only one that knows about the dream and that I found Darren...other than Kurda, of course.

After washing my face slightly I chug the rest of the water before getting up and leaving the small confined space I've spent about three days in.

Is Darren OK? He must be... It has only been three months, how could something bad happen to the strong boy?

Shaking the nasty thought out of my mind I continue my search for the blonde haired traitor. Maybe I should hear his side of the story first...

Finding him at the Hall of Oscar Velm with some other vampires. He was laughing and joking around with them, like nothing had ever happened. I grew angry and was getting ready to spin around and give up on my quest to chat with the male.

But, of course, he notices my presence right before I spin on my heels and flee. I notice the black haired Arra Sails next to him.

I stiffen when Arra sees me and I storm out. Arra and I had a fight right after I came back to the mountain, she said on what I did was stupid and irresponsible. She said that I was useless and that she would never make me a vampire...but after what happened to Gavner, I don't want to be one.

Something coils around my arm and I already know what it - or who- Kurda... I turn back to him with angry and tear-filled eyes.

"What do you want?" I snap, "I don't want to talk to you, I don't want to look at you, and I don't want to see you having fun!"

He gulps, "Then look away and just listen. I didn't do it because I wanted to. I did it because I think this will help the clan."

"A death?! You think he was a threat!"

"No! Of course not! It's the fact he threatened to give away the vampaneze' position..." He grew quiet. I see, he wants to keep this all a secret and he is scared of people hearing.

I shake my head as my tears fall down my face, "I don't know what I expected... I wanted to talk to you and have things to go back to normal...so bad I want to! But...of course that isn't possible..."

"It can be! For the last time let's hang out like nothing happened! Please...after that, you can hate me, scream at me, expose me, just...please oh please give me one day." He looks so sad, he really cares, but I don't know if I can forgive him for his crime, how could I?

"I don't think I can just forget." I grit my teeth, "I mean...everything with Darren.."

"Please. One day- no, one hour."