Unspoken Feelings

Dead Body

I never thought that I'd see you wearing those tux.
You looked so handsome, yet sad.
Your eyes were shut, but it's beautiful.
Just like the first time that I saw your eyes closed in that cold starry night.
Your lips were pale, I wanna kiss it.
Your nose so cute, I wanna touch it.
Baby lemme hold your hand though it's cracked.
For I longed for you to touch me with your cold hand.
I remember those days, where we held our hands together and ran all over the garden like we had the best days of our lives.
I was there, and so are you.
We shared the same love, t'was more than love.
We had the best night, in that cold starry night.
I have missed you.
I miss you.
I'm missing you, you and your horrible laugh. That makes me smile a little.
And I know, baby I know.
That I'm gonna miss you forever!
It's hard to accept it, but I'll try.
For I can't do anything just to make it all right.

 
You're so handsome with that tuxedo, it looks good on you.
So good that it's making me cry, for you're supposed to wear it in our favorite church.
Baby I'm wearing the dress that you gave me, it fits me so well and pretty.
I badly wanna wear this in our wedding day, if only you're here.. please stay with me.
I missed your hugs, and your tiny little laughs.. those dimple of yours that I love.

I cried, and tried..
I cut my own wrist, and died. Emotionally, I died.
I can't breathe, I'm suffocated.
But they saved me, though I don't deserve it. I need to see you fully, not just your dead body.
I wanna kill myself, how would I do it? For everytime that I try, they spy. They're always there whenever I try.
Is this really a goodbye?
You, not being with me for the rest of my life.
Please let me see your soul, not just your body.
I want you alive with me, not with a dead body.
For I can't hug you now, not anymore.
'Cause you were prisoned in that retangle thing that's white.
I want you back, I'm sorry.
For I can't be happy, without you here with me.