Unspoken Feelings

you're not him

you two looked
exactly the same
when we were younger,
the innocent face with a bad temperature when it comes to
some things..

but, he was warmer
i think? i hope so

i think he's less violent
and i think he'll listen more
to what i'll say

but you two looked exactly
the same

but..

you were a lot more different
and i don't know why

maybe because you
make me more nervous
when you're around

and you make me smile more
just by being there for me

and..

you got more jokes,
that was never funny
but i smiled anyway

and,

we were more close
we've known each other since
i don't know

i know you more,
maybe that's it

i know you too much
and maybe that's why

why i got very disappointed
when you suddenly left
without saying a word

he's warmer,
he's simpler and fun to be with

but you know,
he's not you

i don't think i deserve
to compare the both of you,
but i can't help it

he looked exactly like you
but younger,

is it okay to fill the
emptiness with his willingness?
is it okay to like someone
who reminds me so much
about you?

but,
you're not him

this is torture, you know
so,
is it okay?
if i started seeing him as you?

i don't know
i really don't :(