Unspoken Feelings

Bestfriend

Is it really wrong to fall inlove with your bestfriend?

If it is.

Then why does it feels so right to me?

It seems like loving him is the only reason for me to live. God I know nobody's perfect, every human being has its flaws.

But why does he looked so perfect to me when we're together?

I feel like I have everything that I need when I'm with him.

I love his laughs, jokes, and the way he annoys me and tease me because of my height.

I don't know, but I really love everything about him.

Is it really wrong for me to love him secretly?

No, I am not taking advantage of our friendship. I just really want these feelings of mine to be kept in a safe place, and don't worry 'cause I'm finding a way to get rid of it.

Yes, I know. I understand.

That he will never notice my stares and of how my eyes twinkle when I look at him.

He will never see me, because for him I am just his friend. And he will never look at me just like how he looked at other girls.

He lets me keep his secrets and craziness, and sometimes he even tell me stories about his girls.

I always wonder of what comes in his mind when we're alone, or when I'm walking away and when he see me laughing with other people without me noticing it.

Because on my side, I'm always happy when we're alone talking and making fun of some stuffs.

And everytime that he's walking away from me, I always wanted to shout to him that I want him to stay with me and spend more time with me.

And when I see him laughing with his friends, or some girl.. I get jealous. And I wish he's laughing with me instead of them.

This is wrong. I can't be possessive to someone I don't own.

And I guess it's really a bad thing to fall inlove with your bestfriend.

But still it feels so right to me, it makes me happy and at the same time it's killing me.

For I can't reach him enough to make him love me, I am a girl and I should wait for him to notice me.

He's so near yet so far, and all that he's giving me is pain in my chest which he barely knows it.

Maybe this is the punishment for me because I fell inlove with my own bestfriend.