P.S. I Love You Kuya #Wattys2016

Chapter 53

Cassidy POV

It's been two weeks since the last time I saw them. I didn't bother to look for them. I'm using to this life, I'm using to this life were I indepently work and lived on my one. Well of course with the help of my true friends.

After all ay ok na pala sila. Pag naaalala ko ang pangyayaring yon ay hindi ko maiwasang hindi malungkot. The way they treated me , the way they approached me it's like I'm the biggest losser in the family.

Nagmahal lang naman ako, anong mali dun? Dapat pala at the first place ay hindi ko nlng siya minahal, hindi ko nalang minahal si Kuya Beau, hindi sana ako ganito, hindi sana ako nasasaktan ng ganito.

Damn! Parang gripo kung tumulo ang aking luha. Well I think that things aren't in my way so I redefined it, I molded it again to the much better way and cosy living. After all hindi naman pala mahirap mamuhay ng mag-isa. I thanked God for giving me such nice friends and true friends in the world, I owe them a lot.

Just like the other day, nagbihis then prepared my stuffs for office. Marami pa pala akong aasikasuhin na Electrical Diagram. Kakastress din kase may mga preferred ideas kase si Boss sa mga wiring diagram. So I prepared and worked on what I think is good. Mabuti nlng kase nagugustuhan naman ni Boss pero may mga small revisions naman.

Umalis na ako ng bahay , and It's already 7:30 a.m, traffic now a days is so heavy. Dami kaseng mga road rehabilitation chorva ang ginagawa.

Everytime na nakakaupo ako sa malapit sa bintana a bus , I just can't stop myself from reminiscing the past, Especially when I was in my first year college. I remembered one circumstance that I was so excited and at the same timenervous for my first ever day in college. I knew that time I felt something unusual for Kuya Beau.

I heaved a deep sighed and I sadly smiled for that memory. How I wish I don't let myself from falling for him. If ever I can go back in time, I will. But I realized that it gaves me an incredible happiness, because seriously speaking I still loved him. I still loved Kuya Beau and I still loved my family but it hurts so much.

I immediately wiped off my tears from falling. Dapat hindi ko na iniisip. My life would not be ever be the same even if they will go after me because the damage has been done and the lessons has been implied in my system. The old Cassidy is gone.

Nakarating na ako sa office. I just sat at my swivel chair and stared to the plan that I'd been working since it was gave it to me. That's way I don't want to recall those memories because it makes me unproductive.

My life today is so different from the life I'd used to be. Kailangang kumayod para makakita ng pera.

"Hey, aga aga ang lungkot ng face mo" boses ni Peggy.

I flinched a bit and I stared at her.

"Oh! smile naman dyan, para kang nabankcrupt sa itsura mo" she said.

I smile a little , kahit pilit lng. Hirap ngumiti pag malungkot. Hindi naman kase ako yung tipo nang tao na ang bilis mag shift ng mood eh.

"Mas maganda kung hindi mukhang pilit. Pero keri narin yan, anong problema?" She asked.

Umiling ako. Wala naman talaga akong problema eh.

"Wala, medyo hindi lng maganda yung gising ko" sabe ko. Nice alibi!

"Weh? Nako ah if I know naiisip mo na naman ang nakaraan mo. Naku ah Cass, tigilan mo yan. Move on na tayo ok! " sabe nya

Napatungo ako. Move on? Nakapag move on naman ako ah? Hindi pa ba?