ShadAmy How Can I Love You?

Everything's Fine Chapter 10

I guess I didn't run that far because the next thing I knew, I saw a blue stream of light zipping past me, and stopping me in my tracks. Or it could be the fact that Sonic is the fastest thing alive. Who cares though, not me.

Sonic held onto my shoulders as I kept bawling my eyes out, I couldn't even make out Sonic's face through my tears.

"Ames, Ames you gotta listen to me." Sonic chided, trying to calm me down.

"Shut-t-t u-u-up!!" I did that thing where when a kid cries, they keep gasping for air between words.

I tried to shake Sonic off me, but I wasn't strong enough. I needed something more heavy hitting. With a snap of my fingers, a big yellow pink hammer magically appeared in my hand. Sonic saw the hammer and barely dodge my attack. I kept swinging and swinging blindly.

"Y-y-you p-played me Son-ic!! I howled.

"Ames, please hear me out"

I swung straight down into the ground hoping I would squash Sonic under the force, but he evaded the attack by tumbling to his right.

"You s-shut the hell up! Y-you can't possibly k-know how this fe-els!" When I lifted the hammer back up, I saw that there was huge chunks of dirt broken up from my hammer. I wanted that to happen to Sonic.

I widely swung. My mistake. Sonic saw that as an opportunity to knock my hammer out of my hand and brought my body into a tight hug. I screamed and pounded my fist on his back, like a child having a hissy fit.

"Amy shut up and listen to me!" He shouted in frustration. My eyes flung open and I stopped punching him. He hasn't used my real name in ages.

I started to sniffle, letting Sonic know that my crying tantrum was dying down. He slowly pulled his body away from mine and wiped away my tears with his thumb.

"Are you calm now?" He asked.

I nodded my head, but I still wanted to smash Sonic's head into the ground.

He let out a sigh and backed away. He ran a hand through his quills and looked down at the ground.

"Ames, I'm sorry you had to find out like this. I was expecting you to find out later, I- I even planned to tell you myself in person!"

I stood there quietly sniffling. I didn't want to use my voice right now.

"I know we have known each other for over 10 years, and in that 10 years, I knew you had a crush on me all this time, it was pretty obvious. I thought, maybe if this keeps going on, I could develop the same feelings you had for me! So, I went on dates with you, hanged out with you, tried to get to know you more, every options I could think of for me to love you."

He knew. He tried for my sake. I felt my heart flutter when Sonic said he tried. He shifted in his spot and flopped his arm's to the side.

"...but... I felt nothing... Nothing change. Yeah, you're my gal pal, but I couldn't see us expanding our relationship beyond that. When grade 11 started, I met knew people,-you met some,-everyone met some! I thought, if I start distancing myself from you little by little, me breaking the news that I didn't like you that way would be less painful. I really thought you would find some other dude to take my place in your crazy fangirly mind."

Silence.

"One day I bumped into Sally. I've always heard things about her but never met her, and when I did, I felt a connection. So... We met up late at night, skip classes and even went on dates together to get to know each other more. We both knew we liked each other, but I mentioned about you, and how you felt about me, and she didn't want to hurt you. So, our relationship was a secret. I've told no one except two other people. But I couldn't believe the day I was gonna have a date with Sally, you had to ask me out. I felt bad if I refused you so I accepted but was never planned on showing up. I'm sorry Ames, I--"

"... How long?" I asked.

"Huh?" Said Sonic in a dumbfounded voice.

"How long have you two been dating?"

"... 3 months and going..."

I felt my heart crash into the bottom of my rib cage and cracked into two dead pieces.

Sonic took a step closer to me and put a hand on my shoulder and bent down until our height matched."Ames, I seriously was gonna tell you, please trust me. I didn't want to hurt you like this."

I received my hammer, with another snap of my fingers, the hammer was gone. I rubbed my eyes and smiled at Sonic. He had a surprise look on his face.

"This isn't your fault Sonic. You tried to let me down easy, but my the curiosity got the better of me. I'm sorry that I was so clingy to you all these years, I'm sorry that you had to do all this just to keep me happy." I said, my tone a little unstable.

He lifted his hand off my shoulder and stared at me with confusion. "You're not upset anymore? That's it?"

"Yeah, that's it. I'll just be on my way back to my-"

"Ames are you seriously okay? Like, in all honesty, I thought you were gonna freak out more."

I winced at how Sonic thought I would overreact some more. "Sonic, seriously I'm fine. Look, if your girlfriend over there makes you more happier than I can, then I wish for the best for the both of you. Also, I'm not a complete emotional train wreck all the time"

I did a fake heartfelt laugh and rubbed my left arm.

"Wow, you're amazing Ames. I--um-- I guess I'll let you go back."

"Thanks Sonic, I'll see you on Monday."

"Alright, I'll assume that I'll see you at my locker?"

I laughed and shook my head in disagreement. "No, your girlfriend can take that job from me now. Bye Sonic."

I didn't turn around to see if Sonic would walk with me. I wasn't surprised when he didn't, he just zipped past me; back to his house. Doesn't matter though, I accepted the fact that Sonic doesn't; and will never ever see me as his girlfriend. I was okay with this, I'm fine. I'm perfectly fine with this.

I am not fine.