ShadAmy How Can I Love You?

Acceptance Chapter 23

What. What the hell did Shadow just mumble? I slowly opened my eyes and pulled my face away. "I-I'm sorry, what?"

Shadow looked down and tried to hide his annoyed, yet flustered face from me. "I said I'm sorry..." He mumbled even quieter.

I don't know about you, but I was extremely disappointed with a mix of disbelief. I just couldn't believe that all this time, Shadow was just saying sorry, not trying to make a move on me. I had to make sure I heard things correctly. "You said, you're sorry?" I asked a bit more harshly than I wanted too.

Shadow backed away and rubbed the back of his head. He kept looking down and then back up at me, trying really hard to keep his cool act together. "How many times are you gonna make me say it? Yes, I'm... I'm sorry for you know. Hurting your feelings."

I suddenly felt rage building up inside of me. I inhaled to puff out my chest and wrinkled my nose in frustration. This... This... THIS... "IDIIIOOOTT!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, and pounced onto Shadow. He was so surprised, that he didn't have time to move out of the way. He tumbled backwards with my straddling on top of him.

"What the hell Amy!? Get off!" He hissed.

I grabbed both of his hands and pinned them down on the ground, making sure that Shadow couldn't get away from this. My expression was still sour with anger while Shadow held a frown of discomfort. "Is that all you were gonna say to me!?" I projected out of my mouth.

Shadow kept on struggling, but I had the upper hand. He plop his head back down and peered up at me. "Yeah, duh. What else would I be here for?" He openly replied.

I felt my eyes slowly welling up with tears and I couldn't believe him. Hell, I couldn't believe myself. Of course Shadow wouldn't come here just to kiss you! What the hell is wrong with you Amy? This guy is a total jerk anyways, you can find someone better. I soften my expression slightly and felt my lips relaxing to a sad smile.

Shadow arched and eyebrow and widen his eyes with concern. "What's the matter? Did something happen when I was gone?"

The tears were streaming down my face, but I wasn't huffing for air yet. I released my grips on Shadow's wrists and let my arms droop to the sides. I lowered my head to break our eye contact.

"Amy, what happened?" Shadow asked in a more worried voice, something I never actually heard before. He raised one of his hands and brought it to my right cheek, then cupped my cheek and wiped away a tear with his thumb. "Amy...tell me what's wrong." He lulled.

Seriously what is wrong with me? Look at me!I'm sitting on top of Shadow while silently crying. I'm such a weirdo. I barely know Shadow yet I have this butterfly flutter feeling inside my stomach. Shouldn't I be moping about Sonic still? No girl can move on this fast. I don't understand myself.

"Amy, please--"

I interrupted Shadow. "Why am I so complicated Shadow? Why can't I just, want one thing without being so emotional?" My voice cracked when I said emotional.

Shadow was stunned for a second. He then glanced away and contemplated on the question. He brought his hand back down and lowered his head and looked up at the ceiling.
"Life forms are meant to be complicated. There is no one on earth that can sustain one emotion or keep ahold of one thing forever. You may see yourself as more complex as others, but in all honesty, you're fine in my eyes. Please do not worry yourself with such trivial matter."

He closed his eyes while I widen mine. I felt the tears stop flowing down, but my heart pumped even harder. I knew what I felt in my heart now. I know it was wrong to feel this way, but I just couldn't help it. Do I even understand this? Of course not. But... I'll accept it. I might get hurt in the end like with Sonic, but I want to give this a chance. I want to see if the feeling is mutual. Shadow must've been worried that I was remaining silent after his sentences. He lifted his head up before opening his eyes. However, I pressed my lips against his hard, while holding his head with my hands for support. How can I love a person like you? I'm such a idiot...