ShadAmy How Can I Love You?

Goodbye Sonic Chapter 35

I didn't want this to happen. I don't know why but I felt like this was wrong, I wanted this to stop. I raised my hand that Sonic was latching onto and placed it on his cheek. I tried to say the words "stop" but it came out muffled because of Sonic's lips. He must've thought my muffled words were a sign of enjoyment of him kissing me because he then wrapped one arm around my waist and pushed me even closer against him. I felt uncomfortable, I wanted out. I bit on his bottom lip hard and got both my arms between our chests, then I pushed off of him. We both stumbled backwards as a puff of hot air was visible from our parted lips.

"Stop!" I panted while bring my hands close to my chest and had a scared look on my face.

"What?" Sonic panted as well. "Why are we stopping? I thought you wanted this."

I winced and looked down at my feet. "I do...I mean I don't... I mean I do but I-"

"Which one is it Ames?" He quickly spoke out.

"I don't know!" I yelled out in distress. "I mean... I did want this okay? I wanted this moment to happen for a really long time but-but I don't know why I feel so...so...weird."

Sonic took a step closer while holding his arms out slightly. "Weird? Like butterflies in your stomach or your mind going completely blank? Ames... That's how I feel about you. That's how I know I love you."

"No Sonic, it isn't the same. I don't feel like that at all. I feel like my stomach is churning in a uncomfortable way, my body wants to get away and my mind...my mind..." I closed my eyes and gulped. I really didn't want to say the last part in front of Sonic. I knew it would only hurt him now that I knew he loves me.

"Your mind is what?" Sonic persisted in the thought.

I reopened my eyes and sadly stared at Sonic's eyes. "My mind is filled with thoughts of Shadow, Sonic... I love Shadow now."

Sonic gave me a look of disbelief and horror. It's like I just told him that he was no longer the fastest thing alive. He took a step back and creates two tight fists. He then clenched his teeth together and looked away from me. His confused concern face was replaced with eyes clouded with anger and a gnarled up nose.

"No..." Sonic finally said.

I looked up confused. What did he mean by "no"?

"I'm not going to give you up to that--that fucking Faker!" Sonic pointed out to his side and yelled at the top of lungs. "Ames he's not good for you! I know him and I know he can't make you happy like I can, I promise!"

I blankly stared at him. I watch as his chest rose moved up and down from his heavily breathing in disbelief. Better than Shadow...? I gritted my teeth and drew my lips into a fine line and glared at Sonic with anger.

"Good for me?" I gawked. "You think that you're better than Shadow!? In what way Sonic!? Did you forget that I don't know, YOU BAILED ON ME ON, ON SATURDAY!?" I stomped in front of Sonic and stood toe to toe to him. "I waited for your arrogant butt all damn day!"

Sonic's eyes widen. "Wait... You waited for me the whole day?"

"Yes I did and I goddamn regret it! I waited in the pouring rain at that stupid fountain until 8 or something--I don't know! And you know what else happened Sonic the hedgehog? I fell unconscious on the pavement!" I flailed my arms out and felt steam spewing out of my ears. My chest rise and fell heavily and my whole body felt like it was trembling. "Don't worry though, SHADOW came to my rescue without even trying!"

Sonic narrowed his eyebrows and was about to say something, but I refused to stop my rage. "You didn't bother to answer my calls, my texts or even had the balls to come to my house and explain yourself! No, I had to confront you. And when I came over to your house, your banging some other chick! Like what kind of Prince Charming that claims they love someone, goes and dates another girl, and still has the guts to say they like them!? Huh Sonic!? Tell me!"

I felt hot streams of tears rolling down my face. My arms shook from the amount of energy I was using to scream. People around us were murmuring and watching the whole fight unravel. Sonic had a hurt expression across his face but I felt no sympathy for a guy that can't even admit his faults.

I gulped and shook my head in disgust. "You're a coward Sonic. A coward that only cares about what other thinks about him. Don't you think it's a coincidence that you confessed to me after me and Shadow's relationship bloomed? You just want everything your way right? You thought, if you confess to me, that my feelings for you would suddenly burst out and I fall for you again? Hell no!"

Sonic lowered his head. He bit his lip back and held his eyes shut. I felt my face lighten when I realized what I just done. I took one step back, grabbed my purse and stood there in front of Sonic. "You know, I always thought Shadow was the complete douche of our group, but now I know that you were the dirtbag, not him.... Goodbye Sonic..."

I spun on my heels, hung my head down and headed towards the entrance. It was only when I was mid way through the building when someone grabbed ahead of my shoulders and stopped me. I looked up and instantly froze. There standing in front of me was Shadow. He had sad eyes with a mix of relief in them. His chest was rising up and down and his breathing was hard, like he just ran a marathon for 6 hours straight.

"Shadow..." I said in a quivering voice. New tears formed inside my eyes and I latched my body onto Shadow's for comfort. My emotions were in a complete mix now. I was happy that Shadow was here, but I was sad that I stood him up for our date. I cried into his chest and didn't want to look up at him, just continued to dig my nuzzle deeper into his chest fur.

Shadow staggered backward but quickly regained balance. For the first time ever, he slowly wrapped his arms around my body and leaned his head on top of mine. He then brought one hand up and began stroking my head with a smooth gentle motion. He quietly cooed shushes, imitating what a father would do when his child falls down on their bike and begins bawling their eyes out. "Shhh... Amy it's alright... I'm here now... I'm here..."