ShadAmy How Can I Love You?

The Organization Chapter 40

I paced back and forth inside my living room with my phone in my hand. Rouge said she will be over here as soon as possible, but can't she come here any faster? I can't even express how much anxiety and terror I was feeling right now after getting off the phone with Shadow. My stomach was doing flips and my blood was boiling hot right now. It's Shadow who we're talking about here, he wouldn't go down without a fight. He must know how to fight. But what if he's dead? Why does he do this job? What IS this job!? So many thoughts and questions were swirling around my head at once, that I couldn't keep track of all of them.

*knock, knock, knock!*

I snapped out of my thoughts and booked it to the door. I fiddled with the lock and flung the door open.

"Well aren't you-"

I pulled Rouge in by the arm and shut the door behind her. I began to drag her towards the living room and forced her to sit down. "Yeah, yeah, hi, I'm not doing fine, whatever just tell me everything!" I pleaded with teary eyes.

Rouge's blinks rapidly and then softens her expression. She waved me to sit down beside her and nothing more. "Rosey dear, what am about to tell you must stay absolutely between us. You got it? It's already bad that I told you Shadow has a girlfriend somewhere else, but now you're asking me about his job? You're just asking me to be killed by your man aren't cha?" Rouge was trying to lighten up my mood, but sadly it wasn't working.

I looked down at the ground and saw the tears fall out onto the sofa. "P-please Rouge, I just wanna know what Shadow's job is."

Rouge's eyes were sad. She looked away then back at me after taking a long deep breath in. "Alright kiddo, but I don't exactly have all of the details, just bits and pieces from what Shadow was willing to tell me and my known background knowledge." I nodded and waited for her to continue.

"First of all, I already told you that I've known Shadow for a long time right? I'm talking about mmmm... 5 years or something. The only reason why I know Shadow is because of that job he is doing... I used to do something similar to his, in fact, we worked for the same organization."

I widen my eyes and wanted to speak out, but Rouge held up a finger in protest. "I'm not proud of what I did in the past...I went from a infamous thief to a... An agent... And I know what you might thinking, like an agent of an FBI or something right?"

I nodded.

"Sorry to burst your bubble hun, but it's nothing like that. I was picked off the streets by this organization. They provided me a roof, a name, a job, and what I thought a place to call home." She winced and bit down on her thumbnail. "It was nothing like that. Yeah they gave me money, more money than I could ever dreamed of, but they made me do things I can never forgot."

I gently grabbed her free hand and continued to listen. She looked down at me hand and smiled weakly. "Thanks, but if it's alright with you, I rather not talk about what I can't forget...Anyways, uh... Most of the jobs I had in that organization was to steal whatever they wanted me too. As for Shadow..." She stared at me hard and then looked away, shutting her eyes tight. "Shadow had to kill people..."

My jaw hung open. I was completely speechless. "W-what you're saying to me is..." I weakly spoke, almost to the point where words weren't even coming out. "That Shadow's killing people right now...?"

Rouge paused, then shrugged. "He only told me this when we first met during a mission. After I learned his name, I started snooping around for more details. Apparently he like, switched over to rescue missions and gathering supplies. I don't know. He might have converted back, but in all honesty, every mission in that organization was always dangerous." She tighten her grip around my hand and squeezed it. "Shadow was like me, he had a hard past and will do whatever this organization tells him to do. The only difference between me and him, is that he came before me. I think 2 years before me.

I abruptly stood up and felt the tears rolling down my cheeks. I don't know why I'm crying so much in all honesty. I think I'm just in shock and I don't know how to handle it but bawl my eyes out. "Rouge we gotta go help Shadow! Or-or at least tell him to quit that stupid job I mean, you quit didn't you!?"

Rouge furrowed her eyebrows and adverted her eyes. "Yeah but..."

"Yeah but what?" I persisted while extending my right arm to the side.

Rouge look back up at me and drew her lips into a fine line. "Amy darling, I wanted to leave after I made enough money for myself and get a new job. I also had to promise that I would never tell anyone about this organization's name or there whereabouts..." She stood up and went over to the balcony's glass door. She placed a hand on it and stared out into the distance. "Shadow definitely has enough money to get by. He's intellectual, fit and good looking. He could get any other job easy." She looked at my reflection inside the glass. "Don't you see Amy? Shadow's staying there for a reason. He's continuing to do his job as a hired assassin or a mercenary in general. Whatever Shadow's reason is, he's hasn't told me anything about it."

I clasped my mouth from the annoying quivering huffs I was doing and looked down. I've fallen for a literal bad guy... To think that Shadow kills people on his own free will and gets paid for it. Rouge walks over and tries to comfort me with a hug. "I know... I know... You still love him don't you?" I nodded my head and hugged her back tightly. "That organization makes you do a lot of bad things but their intentions were... Some what pure. The best thing you can do right now is wait for Shadow to open up to you on his own pace."

"B-b-b-but Rouge..." I spoke with a stutter. "He could get hurt..."

Rouge slowly did gentle strokes on my head. "I know he can, but this is Shadow. He's hard to take down...In fact, he's the best agent I've ever seen when I was working there."

I looked down at our feet and shut my eyes close. Just how many more things do I not know about Shadow!? Is his name even Shadow to begin with? I opened my mouth only to close it when Rouge placed a hand over it. She shook her head and then began to walk towards the door. "Pinkie, I'm telling you things that could potentially get both of us killed if someone overheard us. I know I might sound over dramatic but I'm being serious here Amy. You absolutely cannot mention this to anyone--including Shadow. I'll be leaving now. If anything serious happen, give me a ring." With that, she exists the door, closing it behind her.

I fell to my knees and continued to stare blankly at the door. I then looked down at my knees and just spoke to myself. "What am I going to do? I love Shadow but there's so many things I don't know about him...Why... Why do you have to be so mysterious Shadow?" I looked up at my ceiling and frowned. "Why...?"

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