Descendant (divergent fan fiction)

Sharp pain of Grief

"No she would want to bury him herself." I say and guard the body away from the nurse.

"Okay fine. You want to go see her? She almost died and she probably wants a friend."

"Okay." I say and walk in. Bianca sits there barely moving.

"Hey." She says weakly.

"Hey." I answer.

"I want to bury him today. They want to make sure I'm stable first. I'm going anyway though." Bianca says.

"Do you think Logan would want to come?" I ask.

"Yeah. But he isn't, because he is the one who knocked me up, he is not the one who carried him around for four months inside of him, and he is not the one who cares." Bianca states.

     "Okay. Who do you want there? And where? I'll help plan." I ask.

     "Noah, Avary- cause she was so excited about me being pregnant-, your dad if he has time, and Amaryllis. That's it. I want it to be small and I want him to be buried at the bottom of the Ferris wheel because he was a kid and he never got to have any fun."

"Okay I'll go tell everybody and get everything together. I'll pick you up around five to get ready." I say and walk out. Noah waits outside and stands up when I come out.

"Is she alright?" He asks as he
Comes up and hugs me.

"She's still so upset with Logan." I sigh into his shirt.

"I would think so." Noah nods.

"But she doesn't think he cares. He didn't even know." I say thoughtfully.

"I know. What would you do?" He asks me. "Say I got you pregnant when we were both drunk, what would you do?"

"Please don't." I say with a slight smile. "And I'm not sure. I would probably tell you but you never know. I think Logan is upset. Really upset, cause he still loves her and whatnot."

"I would too." Noah shrugs.

"Shut up." I say teasingly and start to walk off but he follows me.

"What?" He asks dumbfounded.

"Nothing." I say mischievously.

•••

"It's okay, come on." I say. I connect my arm with Bianca's while she holds the lifeless baby in her arms. Today I put on a pure black dress with lacy sleeves so you can still see my skin through and the back is open so my new tattoo can be seen. We walk down to the Ferris wheel where everybody waited in their nicest suit or dress and holds a bouquet of black roses. A small coffin lays on the ground beside the grave. Freshly polished with the flaming dauntless symbol on it.

"I didn't want to be a mother." Bianca says. "It was all a mistake but when I found out I was pregnant I realized I'd actually be related somebody. Because if you look around you nobody here is actually related to me. Your just friends, and I was planning on loving him and giving him a life I didn't have. I'm going to miss out on that now, and he's not going to get that now, because of me. May he rest in peace and play with other dead babies in a place I have to believe exists because if I don't I wouldn't know where he goes." Bianca finished and lays to blue bundle in the coffin. She leans down and places a kiss on his forehead before sealing the coffin. They aren't burying him deep but right below the surface. Bianca and I place the coffin in the hole in the ground with tears ruining our make up. His grave had his name carved in it.
R.I.P
Nick Carter Gravely
November 23- November 23