Descendant (divergent fan fiction)

Secrets cant be kept

Harper's POV

"I don't want to do this again." I huff as Noah sits beside of me. I'd been out here for about ten minutes just staring at this van. It was bigger and looked like you could live in it though.

"None of us do." Noah says.

"Why can't they sedate us?" I ask teasingly but it came out much more serious.

"I could get that arranged?" Noah says and u give him a blunt look.

"I was kidding."

"I'm not." Noah shrugs.

"I want to be awake. Amaryllis wasn't awake last time." I whisper the last part.

"I know." Noah replies gently.

"Let's go." I whisper and squint my eyes shut for a split second before cautiously entering the van. This time there are compartments for three to four people in each. Noah opens one of the doors to allow me in and I smile in reply.

"Do all of the other factions have to be on this bus too?" Noah asks.

"I think that's why it's so big yes." I nod and sit down hesitantly. Noah sits across from me and when Bianca comes through I wave her down.

       "Look I don't want to come in here if you two will be snogging the whole time." Bianca says in the door of the compartment.

       "Just get in here." I scold her and she rolls her eyes and sits beside of me.

I suddenly start twitching and trembling.

"I'm sorry I can't do this." I unbuckle and dash out the door. I run into a hard chest and find its my dad. I hadn't seen him since this Morning. I immediately ingulf myself into him still shaking. He seems taken aback for a moment but let's me use him as a comfort device.

"What's wrong Harper?" Dad whispers quietly in my ear.

"I can't do it." I say but I refuse to sob. My face is just petrified.

"Yeah you can." He swipes a strand of hair out of my face.

"How did mom do it all the time? All the way to the end? When she just..." I hesitate. "Did it. She just died for everybody." I breathe inwardly.

"She was special. But she wasn't always like that, you know?" He was talking to me like an equal. Not just a little kid that needed protection. "When I first saw her, she was a tiny skinny abnegation. But she claimed she wasn't selfless enough but from my perspective? I think she just had to find herself." He says thoughtfully as though he'd rehearsed it.

I stay oddly quiet.

"Now go board that van and it'll be over before it's even started." My dad smiles down at me and kisses my head.

"Love you." I smile leaning into him for a moment before climbing back into the van. I hesitate at the entrance of the compartment if left. I open the door slightly with closed eyes.

"I told you she's come back if you just left her alone." Bianca claims with a smirk. I smile weakly and sit uncomfortably in my seat beside Bianca. We watch through the transparent glass as everybody else files in. All of the adults seem to be going to the back including Peter and the rest of the faction trainer people. After a moment of silence I feel the van move.

"Okay." Noah leans down way too comfortable to be in a car again. "When were you two going to tell me Peter was your dad?" He looks straight to Peter.

"What?" I say immediately but I sound a bit too surprised.

"I already know." Noah clasps his hands together. Bianca just fidgets in her seat. "You could've told me." Noah says looking at her softly.

"I know. It would've came out eventually it's just-" Bianca exhales. "It's hard."

"How'd you know?" I blurt.

"I'm not an idiot Harper. You might as well just tell me next time you have a big secret Bianca." Noah sits back.

"He just left me." Bianca says after a moment. "He thought it would've been better if I just not know him. But I lived with her. She didn't care about me so Nick happened. And that was probably the worst part of my life."

We all know who she talks about when she says her. Her mom. I've only met her one and she wasn't even sober which is pretty normal. Bianca's grown up with me almost. Most of her meals as a kid were either with my dad or just the dauntless cafeteria.

"It's okay you dot have to say it." Noah says reassuringly as he saw the pain gleam in Bianca's eyes.

Bianca looks at me for a moment. "Thank you. For helping me when you knew she wouldn't."

      I smile. "I'm glad I did." Bianca seems to be having a hard time keeping things together

       "Are you going to sleep?" She asks me and Noah.

     "Probably not." I say.

       "Not even if I wanted to." Noah shakes his head.

       "Me neither." Bianca agrees.

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Authors note!

I broke my arm people I'm sorry😥 so updates might be slow but I'll try😜

⚡️Darcy⚡️