One Shots

What Breaks My Heart

What Breaks My Heart by Parachute

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Also, shoutout to one of my closest pals @coolcatmanderz for listening to all my ideas and always being down to proof read and give me feedback on my stories. you're the best mate!

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"(Y/N), stop staring at your girlfriend. We need to get moving." Clarke nudged me and I rolled my eyes. "She's not my girlfriend and you know that." She was referring to Octavia Blake, who I had developed a really big crush on after first seeing her. Who wouldn't though? She's a babe, but at the moment we were just really close friends. She made eye contact with me and ran over, "Hey!" I smiled and ignored Clarke's sigh, "Hey, O. What's up?"

"Getting ready to go on a hunt. Wanna come?" Clarke didn't give me a chance to respond, "She can't. We've got to go investigate something. Come on, (Y/N)." She tugged my arm and I turned and waved to Octavia, trying to ignore the disappointed look on her face. "Jesus, you're like a lovesick puppy." I stuck my tongue out at Clarke and pulled my arm from her grasp. After her annoyance with me wore off we went back to joking and having a good time like we normally did together. "Holy shit.." I mumbled when I saw the ship that had crashed. It was small, but pretty banged up. "Clarke, there's someone in there." I ran over to the door and pulled it open, reaching up to check the girl's pulse. "Woah.. I made it?" Her eyes fluttered open and I chuckled, "Yeah, you did. I'm (Y/N)." I helped her out and she shed the astronaut gear she was wearing. She smiled and span around in the grass, "Welcome home." Clarke smiled at her and I watched in amusement, "I'm Raven." She looked over at me and I raised an eyebrow, "The youngest zero G mechanic in like.. 50 years. That Raven?"

"52 but who's counting." She smirked at me and I grinned, "Cocky. You and (Y/N) will be the best of friends." Clarke chuckled and I watched as Raven's eyes caught something in the forest and she ran towards it. I saw her run up and kiss Finn, glaring at him as he kissed back. I don't hate the guy. Well, I didn't up until now. He slept with Clarke a couple days ago and now, by the passion they both have, I'm assuming him and Raven had been dating for a while. "Ouch.." I mumbled. "Don't." Clarke glared at me and I held my hands up in surrender. After that day, Raven became my best friend. We were practically inseparable and I spent the majority of my free time with her, when I wasn't hanging with Octavia of course. I finally got up enough courage to think about asking her out one day. "Wanna take a break?" I smiled at her, heart ramming against my ribs. She nodded and took my hand, a large grin on her face, "Yeah! I wanna tell you about something." I saw her blush slightly and felt the curiosity rise within me as we walked to "our spot" which was the butterfly forest she had shown me a couple weeks before. We laid in the grass and stared up at the bright blue butterflies that were flying around the air and sitting in the trees, "So, what did you want to talk about?"

"I think.. I think I'm in love with someone.." She beamed and I felt my heart race even faster, if that was even possible at this point. "Who?" I asked quietly and she turned on her side to face me. "Lincoln.." She blushed and I felt my heart shatter. "He's just so sweet and caring and I love spending time with him. He's amazing." She gushed with a dreamy look in her eyes, "So, are you guys together?" She nodded with enthusiasm and I smiled, "I'm glad you're happy, O." That was the last day I really went to the butterfly forest with Octavia and I started to pull away from her, just all in all being really mopey and sad. I mean, I had really started falling for her, but at least she's happy. I still have hope though, hope in the "maybe someday" aspect of falling for someone. That's the worst part though. A few days later I decided to walk into the woods myself and just watch the butterflies. I stopped behind a tree when I saw Octavia and Lincoln there. There were smiling, swaying gently under the light. She had love in her eyes as she leaned up and kissed him. I felt my heart start to break because I could tell she really did love him. I can't blame her for living her life and all I want is for her to be happy. She didn't see me and that didn't hurt much because, like I said, I don't come around here anymore. I just thought maybe walking through here would help me collect myself, but boy was I wrong. Lincoln pulled away and hugged her tightly before disappearing into the forest. She was getting ready to turn and leave, but we locked eyes and she smiled, "Hey." I nodded back to her, momentarily forgetting how to breathe. I couldn't see anything but her, not even the stars. All I could see was me being the one to hold her close and dance under the light of the butterflies in the night. The image in my head was perfect, we would be perfect. That's another thing that just hurt way too bad. "I was just heading back to camp.." She said and I nodded again, "I just came out here to think for a little bit. I'll see you back at camp." She nodded, bumping my shoulder playfully as she walked by and I smiled. I sat on the tree stump and just processed everything before going back to camp. "(Y/N), come in here!" I heard Raven yell from inside her little mechanics room. I walked in and she turned to me, "What's going on with you?" She asked, concern flickering in her eyes before her walls went back up. She became really guarded after what happened with Finn and I didn't blame her. I personally wanted to kill him after having to witness my best friend go through such a change. I was there for her though. I held her close that night as she cried and I promised her that no matter what happened, no matter who left her or hurt her, I would never leave her. "Nothing.. I just need to sleep it off. I'll be fine in the morning." I forced a smile onto my face and she shook her head, "You've said that every day for weeks." She sighed, running her fingers through her hair. "You wouldn't like it if I told you." I sat on the other chair and she shook her head, kicking her feet up on her work table. "I don't care how I feel. I just want to know what's wrong. You're my best friend. You can tell me absolutely anything." I nodded and sighed, resting my chin on my palm, "I fell really hard for Octavia.. And now I have to watch her be in love with Lincoln and pretend to be okay." I saw her jaw clench at the mention of Octavia's name, "See, I knew you would be mad. Just forget about it." I sat back in the chair and she shook her head, "I don't like the girl, but I can't control your feelings. I'll be there for you no matter what. Now, how do you feel about her and Lincoln?"