princesses and vampires | gerard way✔

52- Bottles Are Broken After Awhile

trigger warning; self harm talk + depressing thoughts
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A week later
Nothing feels right, I wake up and do the same thing. I feel no happiness or motivation. My emotions have been bottled and I feel like I'm going to crack any second. Nothing seems worth it.

Most would say I have the life but they don't understand my background. I've lost my mom, my family blames me for it. I've lost my dad, which is because of me. I couldn't have a normal life, no I fell in love with a vampire and got my ass in trouble. Everyone but the guys seem to hate me. Zach attacks and manipulates me any second he has.

Gerard will probably leave me, the guys will side with him and leave. Jacob will live with one of his friends because I'm annoying. What's the point of living when there's nothing to live for.

I was then snapped out of my thoughts by the school bell ringing. I sighed and grabbed my bag, leaving class.

"Violet wait up!" Frank and Mikey yelled

I stopped and to turned them on my heels

"Violet whats wrong?" Frank asked

I shook my head and walked to Mr. Quinn's class, ignoring Mikey and Frank's repetitive 'are you okay's?'
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"Violet why aren't you eating?" Gerard asked as I poked my good with a fork

I shrugged and pushed away my plate

"Violet why aren't you talking?" Mikey asked

Once again I shrugged, I didn't want to talk. I wanted to be alone, I deserved it. They shook their heads and continued talking. A tear rolled down my cheek and I wiped it away with the sleeve my jacket.

"Oh babygirl!" Zach exclaimed running to our table

Oh great what does he want

"Why aren't you talking?" He asked

I just shook my head and played with my sleeves

"Zach go." Gerard glared

"Fine." He sighed and walked away

"Violet?"

I said nothing

"Violet."

Nothing

"Damnit Violet!" Gerard snapped and slammed his fist on the table

I immediately put my hands over my ears and ran out of the cafeteria to the halls. My vision became blurry as tears fell down my face.

"Damnit Violet why are you like this." I sighed pulling my hand with my hands

The bell rang and I walked to my next class ignoring Mikey and Frank who which walked in looking concerned.
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I walked without the guys home, I didn't feel like dealing with questions. When I got home thirty minutes later the guys walked in. I whimpered, scared of the events next.

"Violet?" Gerard said as I hid behind the kitchen counter

Maybe if I stay here long enough I'll disappear. I was then picked up and I looked up to Gerard. He set me on the bed and closed the door.

"Arms." He demanded

"N-no." I replied holding my arms close to me

"Arms now Violet I'm not playing!" He hissed showing fangs

I whimpered and gave him my arms. He pulled up sleeves and revealed five cuts.

"Violet why?" He asked letting go of my arms

I said nothing but let tears fall

"Violet talk to me damnit!"

"I-i o-only c-cut when I g-get panic a-attacks it h-helps." I stuttered

"I don't care what helps, I'll help you. You don't cut. When did it start?" He asked

"F-first time it was when I was t-thirteen, then it w-was two weeks a-ago."

"Violet, arms."

I held them back out and he kissed one of the cuts

"Don't ever do this again, understand?"

"I understand."

"Good now, I love you. You should get some rest." He said and laid down with me and kissed my forehead

"I love you too."

Truthfully I was happier but I still had problems. Maybe one day I'll fully be happy.