princesses and vampires | gerard way✔

54- You Love To Destroy Me But I Have Backup

trigger warning; depressing thoughts + abuse
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Two days later
The last few days have been hell. I wake up cheerful and as my days progress I get more depressed. I hated being like this more than anything. The guys started picking up on my moods and actions which makes me have the need to fake everything I do. I feel fake and alone.

Why must the world be cruel, why can't I move past my struggles and be happy. I have Gerard, Jacob, and the guys, they're my world but I feel as if recently I've been losing the relationship we had. Everything is my fault, I ruin everything I do.

I sighed and ran my hands through my hair. I finished my coffee, waiting for the guys to get ready.

"Violet?" Gerard said putting his hand on my thigh

"Yes?" I asked faking a smile

"You've been acting different, is something wrong?"

"No I'm good." I lied

"Okay just checking on my princess." He smiled and kissed me
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Finally night time fell, Gerard and Frank went hunting as Mikey and Ray fell asleep. I tried to sleep but thoughts raced my mind and kept my eyes open.

I grabbed my jacket and walked out the door, walking to the cemetery. I sat by the tree as the wind blew cause the leaves on the tree to shake and fall.

My thoughts then wandered, why couldn't I be normal? I could have a happy life with my mother, father, and brother. But no my mother is dead, my father is dead, my brother rarely talks to me, I'm dating a vampire and friends with his vampire friends, I have too many bullies to count, and I have vampires trying to kill me.

"Ah babygirl." Zach sighed and walked towards me with a baseball bat

"W-what do you want?" I asked standing up

"Oh looks like your talking again, I don't like it." He snapped and pushed me against the tree by my throat

"L-let g-go." I demanded squirming

"Oh no can do...let's see I hate your talking." He stated and punched my throat

I let out a coughing fit and gasped for air

"I hate your hair." He smirked and pulled on my hair, pieces falling out

I screamed in agony and tears fell down my face from pain

"I hate your knees." He chuckled darkly and took the baseball whacking it on my knees

I fell to the ground screaming from pain and tears streaming down my face

"Love you." And with that he stuttered away

I sat and screamed in agony as the pain in my knees starting getting worse

"Violet!" I heard Ray call out

"R-ray." I tried to scream but my throat gave out

He then spotted me and rushed to my side and carried me bridal style

"Violet what happened?" He asked worry laced in his words

I tried to speak but nothing came out, I pointed to my knees and silent tears fell down

"Zach did this didn't he?" He asked pointing to my bruised knees, hair ripped out in places, and bruised throat

I nodded quickly and hid my face in his chest

"Just hold on, I'll get you home." He cooed and ran us to the house

In no time we were home and Ray sat me on the bed, then got Mikey

"Violet what happened?!" Mikey exclaimed, his tired state now leaving

I pointed to Ray and he explained. Mikey then looked at my knees making sure it wasn't broke

"It looks like the pain was just from impact, nothing broke." He smiled warmly

I pointed to my throat

"That just had to have time to heal." He sighed

"Thanks Mikey, you can go back to bed." Ray giggled

"Will do, and wake me up if anything happens." Mikey smiled and went back to his room

"I'm going to go to bed, goodnight." Ray said and was about to leave but I hit him with my pillow

"What?" He laughed

I pointed to the other side of the bed and he raised an eyebrow

"You want me to sleep in here?"

I nodded

"Okay...but if Gerard's gets pissed it's your fault." He giggled and got in bed as I cuddled to his side

Maybe they do care for me