princesses and vampires | gerard way✔

119- Notes That Set You Free

I can't take it.

All of this.

Tomorrow, tomorrow I'm supposed to see Zach.

He's supposed to 'touch' me or a nice way of saying rape.

Let's put it this way, I'm a prey about to enter my predator's territory. I'm walking on a thin line that's guaranteed to break.

Here I was, sitting at my desk, paper, pen, and a dark thought haunting my mind.

I was going to escape, forever.

Call me selfish, call me a attention whore. At this point I don't care.

I've seen my father die, and many other innocent people for the sake of myself. I've had people taken away from me, I've had people come into my life. I've had hell chase me, or have hell chasing me.

I'm not strong enough, I'm not meant for this, I'm too weak.

With a shaking cold hand I write the last things I want everyone to know, I didn't leave without a purpose.

After hours I finished my letters each one read;

Dear Gerard

I love you, I love you now, and always will. You may think that I was a poor broken hearted girl, but you would think wrong. I had everything, a kind brother, a group of awesome friends that would do anything for me, and you my beautiful, sweet boyfriend. With Zach beating me, it stalking me, Andy hidden in the shadows waiting to attack, Bonnie waiting for revenge, and Bob, well who the hell knows where he is, I just can't live content knowing they're here. Gerard I love you, nothing will ever stop that please remember that. I'll remember you forever. See you one day my love.

,Violet, Princess

Dear Jacob

With all I've done to you somehow you still put up with me. I'm sorry I couldn't give you the normal life you wanted, you deserved. Please don't remember me as the sad, troubled sister. Instead remember me as your now happy little sister. Don't ever forget me because I'll never forget you, I love you so much big brother.

,Violet, Mistress

Dear Ray, Frank, and Mikey

We've came a long way from when I was a confused little girl and you guys trying to kill me. I'm sorry for all the times I was jealous and all the times I was a complete bitch. Please be here for each other. I do ask one favor, don't forget me. And when you do remember me don't think of the bad times, remember the good times. I love you guys so much.

,Violet, Sugar, Sweetheart

Dear Andy, Bob, Bonnie, It, and Zach

Fuck you. Fuck you all. Because of you guys I ended up like this. Don't ever think I'll forget you because god knows I won't. Now thank you all so much for the hurt you caused, fuck you.

,Violet, Baby, Sweetie, Babygirl

I rested my head against the table and let tears fall.

I looked back at the clock to see it striked twelve. I sighed and grabbed my jacket.

I was about to leave my room until I saw Gerard, sleeping. Tears streamed down my face.

I wouldn't be able to hold his hand and kiss him...

I approached him, kissed his forehead and ran my fingers through his hair.

"I love you so much Gerard." I whispered

I made my way out the room and out the front door.

This is it.

I headed towards the ocean where the highest part of the town was located.

A cliff that was above the sea. I would jump off and have my last sight be beautiful not tragic.