princesses and vampires | gerard way✔

118- It's The Thought That Counts

It's been a day, a day since I practically sold my soul to the devil. I hated the feeling of this. Every hour seems to go by faster, every breath seems to take longer, and every word comes out louder.

My anxiety levels skyrocketed, my depression started tinkering in my mind, and my thoughts, well they've just gotten darker.

Suicide, this is a certain dark term. Sure I've thought about it but right now that seems very unluckily. I wanted escape but not like that.

I guess I just have to accept the touch of Zach, the stalk of it, and the uncertainty of death from Andy.

And Bob, Bob I don't know where he went but with my luck him and Andy grouped together.

It seems like a little girl is fighting her monsters, and hell that's what it feels like.

I had Gerard, sure. I love him but does he love me? I still have Bonnie planning some revenge and that preppy bitch from school. I was never safe from anything.

I told myself the guys brought these horrible events in my life but have they always been here? Have I been just blind from the truth.

Were they sent to me for opening my eyes? Were they supposed to leave long ago.

I wonder, how did Gerard ever find me. Why did he like me?

He's a fucking vampire I'm a damn human. He knew if he dated me things wouldn't be good!

...He risked his life for me. Hell he risked many people's lives for me...he cares. Doesn't he?

I can't-

"Violet are you okay? You're acting distant." Gerard asked putting his arm up on the couch

"Yeah I'm fine."

Lie.

"You sure?"

"Of course Gerard."

Lie.

"Did something happen at school?"

"No not at all, why?"

Lie.

"Just wondering."

I lie. That's all I do
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"Hello sweetie."

I froze from putting books in my locker

"Goddamnit just go away!" I screamed closing my eyes

"You're screaming at nothing you freak." Zach snickered

I opened my eyes to see Zach looking smug

"Shut up." I hissed and slammed my locker, walking away

"Come here bitch!" He shouted and grabbed me by my hair

I followed him yelling in the process. He slammed my body into the locker and kicked my stomach.

"You need to learn some respect bitch!" He exclaimed and slapped me

I stood there just looking at the ground

"See you at my place two days, clocks ticking." He said with a smirk walking away

I'm ending this all, one way or another