Diary of a Daughter (Based off of "Moments")

Fifty: My Choice

7/31/26

Ever since the sleepover, May hasn't been talking to me. I have no idea whether she's doing this on purpose or not, but it's still scary and it's worrying me. I hope I don't lose her as a friend after what I said at the sleepover.
As each day goes by since the sleepover, I've been stressing myself out over the situation, sometimes even crying myself to sleep at night. After another date I went on with Dana, even he thinks something is wrong, but I refuse to say a word about it to him.
I care about both Dana and May so much. I feel like I have a huge choice to make and I feel like either way, if I choose one over the other, I'll lose the one I didn't choose. I kept piecing together everything and making up a pro's and cons list of dating each of them, and they both came out as more pro's than cons. Finally, I told my Dads about the situation, and they said it was all up to me and that I should follow my heart. But I'm already terrible at that.
I just don't know what to do and I'm absolutely scared right now. The fact that school is less than a week away is even scarier because that means Dana and I see each other again and he probably has a lot of questions to ask me since our last date.
I just hope everything goes well.

~Em

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08/08/26

It was my first day of school and already Dana has asked me to homecoming, even though that was more than a month away. But being the scaredy cat I was at saying no to him, I said yes. Fortunately, he didn't ask me anything about how I was feeling during the last date. I'm not sure whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. Let's hope it's something good.
Normally I talk about my classes and stuff but I'm too emotionally overwhelmed to talk about them right now. All I'll say is that it's the same as last year, just different subjects and teachers.

~Em

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10/05/26

Dear Diary,

In another week or two, I'll be going to Homecoming with Dana. I've decided that even though it's probably the absolute worst time to spill out the truth, I would explain the situation to Dana.

I'm just absolutely terrified of what he'll say... After I tell him that I have chosen May...

~Em

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That following week was homecoming. As usual, Dana, his mom and my parents came together and took pictures of us together before we went to the homecoming dance at the high school. Although I couldn't focus on any of that. My mind was racing with the thought that I would have to tell Dana the news of all days, today. I don't know how I was going to do it and when exactly, and what would happen afterwards.

Before we left to go to the high school, Daddy S and Daddy M gave me a look that told me everything would be okay. I simply nodded before going to the car and heading over to the high school.

As soon as we got to the high school, we had to wait in a long line to check ourselves in before being handed a mask, since our theme was "Masquerade!"

Dana and I went into the gymnasium, where I met up with Ava and Kelly who went over and hugged me. They knew what was going to happen tonight too, and surprisingly, they were supportive of my decision.

We all decided to go into the cafeteria to get something to eat. Although I didn't eat anything. I was too busy focusing on the fact that I was going to probably hurt Dana.

Then, Dana and I went back into the gymnasium, where a slow song began to play. He took me to the dance floor to dance. I was trying to enjoy the moment, but I was still a nervous wreck.

My heart jolted as he started talking.

"You okay?" Dana asked.
"Y-Yeah." I stuttered.
"That's not a very assuring yes." Dana remarked.
I then let out a big sigh, "Can we talk after this song is over?"
"Why not now?" Dana asked.

I sighed again and then nodded.

Dana and I headed towards the back of the high school, where it was empty and nobody was around.

"I'm sorry Dana..." I immediately began.
"Sorry for what?" Dana asked.
"I-I've been hiding something for a while, and I've finally gathered the courage to tell you." I explained. "But it's still so nerve wrecking, especially since I decided to tell you tonight of all nights."
"Tell me what?" Dana asked, a little nervous.
I sighed and got emotional, "Dana... I'm bi... And I've been having feelings for this girl for a while. Ever since you and I started dating."

Dana didn't say anything, and his expression was totally surprised. I didn't know what that meant. I couldn't tell whether it was an upset surprised or not.

But all of a sudden, he embraced me.

"Emily, you've been so kind and honest to me these past few years, it's time I returned the favor." Dana said.
I was completely baffled by his response. "Y-You're not mad at me? Especially after maybe keeping it from you these past few months?"
"Em, it's really difficult to come out to someone when you have a different sexuality." Dana responded. "So for you to tell me, I'm really proud of you."
I smiled, almost crying. "I'm so sorry."
Dana smiled back and hugged me again. "Don't be sorry Emily, I understand."
"Does this mean we can still be friends?" I asked.
"Why wouldn't I be friends with you?" Dana asked.

I smiled and we continued hugging as relief and more emotion began rushing through my body. Then after a few moments, we went back to the gymnasium, where we continued to hang out with Ava and Kelly. With everything out of the way, I was finally able to enjoy my time at homecoming.

But I wasn't done yet. I still had to tell May how I felt about her.