Change of Heart

Part 36 - My Drug

Adrian's P.O.V

{Adrian in mm}

I've been beating up myself ever since I got home from Maliq's. I made a huge mess when I kissed Kairon and now I am paying for that. I know that the guys all think of me as a fuck boy but, I had the biggest crush on Kairon since we was teenagers. I always tell him that we was gone get married and shit like that. I ignored his attempts to turn me down cuz there were times when he would flirt back. Since he got with Jaxon, shit changed and instead of respecting his relationship, I still tried one last time.

Maliq and I connect and that scared me cuz apart from Kai, I ain't never connected with anyone else. I love that nigga cuz he gots my back and treats me like I am his world. Sex with him is amazing, that boy can lay pipe like crazy. 

I've been in my room for the past two weeks, Adriana mad at me for being messy. I cried myself to sleep cuz I can't stop thinking about him. I miss how we would cuddle and how he loves to play at times. I'm not girly by a long shot but I can't stop crying over Maliq. I wanna call him but I know he won't answer my call cuz he is hurt. I done fucked up after everything he told me he had to deal with. 

I was the only person he trusted to open up to fully about what it was like being closeted and losing his brother. It is a dangerous place to be alone; in your mind with nobody to share shit with. Right now I am close to that place because all I want is Maliq to call me and say we gotta work it out. 

My phone started ringing and I answered hoping it would be Maliq.

"Hello" 

"Adrian it's me Trey" I was freakin' out inside cuz this nigga dead crazy.

"Wassup Trey?" I asked tentatively 

"Yo what the fuck happened with you and Kai and Maliq them?" he asked. He didn't sound mad at all, more like he wanted to hear my side so I decided to use this time to just let shit out.

"Trey I fucked up! You ever been hung up on a girl but that girl keeps turning you down?" I asked him.

"Yeah I have. That bitch played hard to get but I eventually tapped that" he chuckled.

"Well Kai is that for me, I thought he was my drug but, I was mistaken. I always wanted him to be my boyfriend and we would flirt and shit. The first time yo brother and I got into it was over the fact that I was cuddled with Kai on the couch while we watched movies. Trey I know I should respect what they have and I tried! Maliq started spitting game and bruh we hit it off and he is now my drug." 

"Yeah I could see that in the hot tub when y'all sucked face. How the fuck y'all hid that from us?" he laughed. 
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"Adriana who that nigga is? The one with them dreads" I asked my sister as I watched the guys.

"That right there is the nigga I punched in the throat for beating on Kai" she said. "His name is Maliq or whatever"

I just started hanging around these guys so l am not about to push up on a straight nigga. The fact that Kairon was with Jax and my sister was definitely not fooling me cuz I could tell Trey was hitting that. I was out by the park sitting on the swings after a lil evening stroll. 

"You ain't scared they take you away?" someone asked and when I turned to check out who it was I did not see anyone. The next thing I know is the person is in the swing beside me.

"The fuck! Maliq! You fuckin' scared me yo" I was panicking real bad and that has been the story of my life, I panic easily. My little melt down scared him and he pulled me in a hug and just kept rubbing my back to get me to calm down. It felt like hours because even after my breathing was back to normal, we stood there hugging each other.