Interracial 5sos

Loving Me C.H

"I love you.",he whispered as if it were an apology.

You only turned around walking away slowly as glass crunched beneath your feet.

You heard your breathing over the sounds of his shaky breaths.

"I love you too.",you said with teary eyes as you walked away. 

You walked upstairs each step making you ache more and more. You ran a bath and you let the heat soothe your bruises and hurt.

You then saw Calum from the mirror and watched as he undressed. He pulled off his shirt and you looked away seeing the scratches and bruises you've made on him. A few gashes that you know won't ever really go away on his very lower back. He was now naked as he looked over his shoulder making eye contact with you from the mirror.

You looked away and his heart sunk as he saw the small scratch on your cheek.

You were now on your side fiddling with the edge of your pillow as he walked out. He looked upon the empty spot in the bed pondering whether it was still reserved for him or not. He wouldn't stay without your consent. Even after everything.

So he grabs a pillow and a blanket and makes his way to the door  grabbing the knob only to be stopped by a sound of ruffling sheets.

"No. Stay.",you said sitting up.

He looked out into the dark hallway then closed it turning his head around ever so slowly.

"Please."

He walked over to where you lay putting his pillow down as he lifted the sheet and put his body beneath the covers letting them slowly fall down on his nude, wrapping him in a cold embrace.

You turned towards him  and he turned his head towards you.

"Don't stop loving me.",you spoke quietly.

"I won't.",he promised kissing your head then nose as his lips traveled to your own.

"I don't mean to hurt you.",you say as he continues to leave kisses over the bruises he made.

"I know. I'm sorry.",he says as you start to get teary eyed.

He kisses your lips again and you kiss back. Its hard to find someone else not that you'd want to. He was everything you actually wanted no matter what happened. Fights always turned physical. You didn't get mad at him the first time he hit you back. He was scarred but then it became a natural self defense in this toxic abusive relationship.

The fights were over nothing. But somehow you always end up in the same ending. You couldn't live without him and he didn't want to live without you.

You'd forgive each other naturally sharing each others bodies as the night passed to day where you would pretend as if the sky were blue even if a storm is happening.

Sometimes you'd both wonder if the other wanted out. The same fear of leaving each other even though you promised you never would.

He kissed you holding your hand as small moans left your mouth and he squeezed his eyes shut. This is how you forgave. To make love then to tear it down all in a matter of seconds.

"Love me.",he said kissing you back.

"I promise. Always.",you said hugging him as he laid on your bare chest. You licked over your cut lip  and bit it attempting to make the physical pain worse than the mental. You tangled your hands in his hair as he cried silently and still one tear coming slowly after the next.

You were staring into an abyss. Wondering what it was like to live without bruises and scars on your soul. That's what hurt the most.

I finally wrote something. Its shitty but so is every comeback I make. and I actually found an interracial picture that was my aesthetic so yaaay.

Lmao highschool is honestly a joke. Bwahaha I hate my life. Can't go to my first homecoming cause my parents hate my everlasting soul but that's cool. And may I mention its the day before my birthday...wowowowowow.