5 Years Later
Ryker is touring with his band after they signed to a label while Vincent and Taylor are still with me.Right now I'm sitting on the couch watching old videos of Jewels and I when I hear Vincent yell.
"Taylor what the fuck,"he yelled.I went upstairs to figure out what was going on and heard everything going down in Taylor's room.
"Hey,what's go on in he-Taylor why,"I started,but stopped when I saw Vincent holding her wrists with fresh cuts on them.
"It doesn't matter,"she mumbled.
"Downstairs both of you now,"I yelled.
"Okay,"they both whispered and walked down the stairs and sat on the couch while I stood in front of them.
"Why are you hurting yourself,"I asked.
"Because I fucking miss mom alright.I never really got to know her and I hate not having any other girl in this house around hardly ever,"she said as tears started rolling down her cheeks.
"Honey,we all miss your mom and I want to finally tell you how your mom died,"I said.
"You said she got really sick,"Vincent said.
"I lied,"I said.I explained to them that she died of suicide and they both were in tears by the end of it.
"Why did she do it dad,"Taylor asked.
"Because of the fans I have,they harassed her and called her ugly,fat,attention seeker,self centered,and everything else you can think of,"I said with tears streaming down my face.They both got up and hugged my as we all stood in the middle of the living room in a tight group hug.
"I miss her so much,"Vince mumbled.
"We all do,"Taylor added.
"That's why I need you both to stay positive and keep all negatively away from each other,"I said.
"I'm sorry dad,I won't do it again,"Taylor said.
"I have an interview so both of you are coming with me,now lets go,"I said as we hurried out the door.Once we got there,we ignored the fans knowing they're the reason we all hurt and I went into the live lounge where we were performing.We first sang Amnesia which was one of the songs I wrote when Jewels was in the hospital.
"I drove by all the places we used to hand out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss how it felt the way you tasted
And even thought your friends tell me you're doing fine
You're somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you
When he says those words that hurt you do you reads the one's I wrote you
It's like we never happened was it just a lie
If what we had was real how could you be fine
Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories that never can escape
Cause I'm not fine at all
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them
I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why you're not around
It hurts to know your happy
And it hurts that you moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened was it just a lie
If what we had was real how could you be fine
Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories that never can escape
If the day I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories that never can escape
Cause I'm not fine at all
No I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
Cause I'm really not fine at all"
"Next one is a song Jewels wrote that we gave Bring me the Horizon.This one's called Drown,"I said as we started playing.I felt tears already start welding in my eyes,but I looked over at the kids as they nodded for me to keep them in.
"What doesn't kill you
Makes you wish you were dead
I've got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper
And I can't take one more moment of this silence
The loneliness is haunting me
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up
It comes in waves I close my eyes
Hold my breathe and let it bury me
I'm not okay and it's not alright
Won't you drain the lake and bring me home
Who's will fix me now
Dive in when I'm down
Save me from myself
Don't let me drown
Who will make me fight
Drag me out alive
Save me from myself
Don't let me drown
What doesn't kill you
Leaves you broken instead
I've got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper
And I can't take one more moment of this silence
The loneliness is haunting me
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up
I'm not okay and it's not alright
Won't you drain the lake and bring me home again
Who will fix me now
Dive in when I'm down
Save me from myself
Don't let me drown
Who will make me fight
Drag me out alive
Save me from myself
Don't let me drown
Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
(Don't let me drown)
Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
(Don't let me drown)
Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
(Don't let me drown)
Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
(Don't let me drown)
Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
(Don't let me drown)
Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
(Don't let me drown)
Cause you know that I can't do this on my
(Don't let me)drown"
"Thanks for having us,"Ash said as I looked around and all the boys had tears slipping from their eyes and that's when I broke.Tears poured from my eyes as I thought of my one and only true love.I had to leave the room as my temper flared knowing that I could've prevented loosing her.I slammed my fist against the wall as I dropped to the floor.
"Baby I'm sorry I couldn't be good enough for you,"I sobbed.
"I just caused you pain you didn't deserve.I deserve to be dead and you should be in my place,"I added.I felt someone put a hand on my shoulder and when I turned around,I saw the last person I'd think it would be.
"Jewels,is it really you,"I asked.
"Yes,I'm now your guardian angel along with the kids,"she spoke softy.I engulfed her in a hug as she buried her face into my chest.
"I miss you,please don't leave me,"I said with tears.
"I'm sorry,but I can only stay for so long.Just remember I'm always here with you,"she said sweetly while running her hands through my hair.I smashed my lips to hers while she was here in my sight.She immediately responded and we stayed like that for a few minutes until she pulled away.I slowly saw her fade into dust as she said I love you.
"I love you too,no else ever,"I whispered.
And that's it my friends,sorry I ended it like that.I just thought I'd do a different ending so it wasn't just the typical story.Go and read my other books if you feel like it.I'll see you later my crazy ass penguin mofós,I love you all.
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Amnesia
FanfictionSqueal to The Only Reason POSSIBLE TRIGGER SCENES! Jewels wakes up with amnesia and has a chance to get it back.Will she be able to get it back or will she never be able to remember some great moments she had in her life?
