Walking Forward to the Beginning (Book 5)

Heartbroken

I can't believe

What happened today

It's like being punched

In the gut

By a wrecking ball

We met when life

Was at its worst

For us both

Illness was our

Constant companion

And then we found each other

Seeing things through

Thick and thin

Near the end

Death's door

I thought we could

Take on anything together

Even called you my sister

I was wrong

You dropped me

Disconnected

Left me behind

Ran away from me

Over an opinion

My G-d what has this world turned to?

Why am I not allowed to have

My own thought process

That differs from yours

Or maybe it doesn't

But you never knew that

Because you never stuck

Around long enough to

Understand

I am completely and utterly

Heartbroken

I've lost my sister

Non-blooded kin

And for what?

I spoke with many

People today that

Also don't agree with me

Opinion wise

But unlike you

They actually understood

Where I was coming from

We agreed to disagree

We had/have enough respect

For one another not to let this

Ruin our friendship

And that your actions

Were shocking

And uncalled for

That perhaps someday

You will realize

What you have done

And come back

But I thought to myself

Even when I do forgive you

When this shock wears off

When the heartbroken feeling goes away

Do I want someone like you

In my life again

You've showed your hand

That if I don't agree

With you and without hearing my side

You will ditch me

Once again for what you

Think is the greater good

When in reality it's painful injustice

That's just not good enough

I refuse to judge people

I feel like I earned your respect

As you did mine

But now you lost it along with trust

And those are the hardest things in the world

To regain

If at all

I wished you to go in peace and with G-d

I still do

No matter how much this hurts

How heartbroken I am

May peace be with you always