Walking Forward to the Beginning (Book 5)

Negative Obsession

Today I had to say
Goodbye to you
I hope it's not forever
But only until
You start to understand

How your
Negative obsession
Affects others
How much stress
You caused
How angry I was

Why did it happen?
Why can't people stop hating?
Why did you not get
That I am only one person

I am allowed to my opinion
I am allowed to have a voice
Even if it differs from yours

Just because I showed my voice
Doesn't mean I'm looking for
A fight
A debate
An argument

If I don't bash
Bulldoze
Make you feel inferior
Stupid
Misinformed

Why did you do it to me?
How could you
And still call yourself friend

No
No
You're not my friend anymore
This vengeful person
Is not whom I've known

You don't like him?
But you sound just like him
Pushing your own agenda
As you disregard what's
Being said right in front of you

Pot calling a kettle black
Not listening to pleas
Of stop
Of enough
Of move on

Your negative obsession
Will be your kryptonite
Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde

And yet it makes me sad
Because I miss the you
From the past
The caring
Compassionate you

The guy who never wanted
Me to stress
The friend who sent me flowers when
I was bedridden
To show me that there were caring
People in the world

Where did he go?
I want him back
Because that guy
Would have never gotten
Me to that stressful point

Knowing that stress
Is the number 1 enemy
To a chronically ill person

I had to let you go
Because my wellbeing
Comes first
You are so blinded that you
Missed that part

As much as this hurts
I will always remember
The you from the past
That's the friend I loved

And I wish you nothing
But the best in your life
Health
Happiness
Peace
And awareness

People come into
Our lives
For a reason
A season
Or a lifetime

I so wanted you to be the last
But alas, it wasn't meant to be
I don't rule anything out
For life can change in an instant

My recovery is a great example
Of just that
So I hope that someday
We will find our way back
To each other

But as better and stronger people
G-d bless