Unbroken

Chapter 41 Chained

Soundtrack: Fix You by Coldplay

Her POV

Mukhang nagbalik na sila. Ang aking mga luha.

"He---he was there. The council took him yesterday saying that they have a witness." sunod sunod ang paghikbi ni Nirvana na mahigpit ang pagkakayakap sa akin. Mukhang hindi nga talaga siya nauubusan ng luha.

"Curran, they are accusing him of betrayal. They--they said the mighty reaper killed mom and dad."

Killed mom and dad.

Those words echoed. Hindi ko naiwasang mapatingin sa aking kapatid na umiiyak. Nirvana 's crying.

No. She's mourning.

Now I understand. My mom and dad, they're not asleep. They're not in a deep sleep just like what I was thinking. They left me. They left us. My mom and dad are gone. And that would last forever.

I closed my eyes and prevented the tears from flowing.

No, not now. People are watching.

Pinigilan ko ang pagpatak ng aking mga luha dahil alam kong sa oras na mangyari iyon, babalik ako sa dati. Mahina. Madaling masaktan. I remembered how much I cried during the first day in Pentagon. Yes, I cried my heart out without letting anyone see me. I was in the training room all alone, locked myself together with the deadly weapons when the only thing that could kill me was my tears. I cried so much that I ran out of tears. That's why when I got here, I felt nothing.

But then, they're back. The bitchy tears are back ngunit ayoko. Ayoko pang maging marupok. I am reserving my tears. That's what I feel like doing. Not because mom and dad doesn't deserve any of my grief, I'm crying so hard on the inside but I don't want these strangers to see my precious tears. No. Not yet.

Pinakawalan ko ang aking kapatid at pinunas ang kanyang mga luha.

"Stop being a cry baby, Nirvana."

"But mom and dad----"

"I said, stop crying."

Pinilit niyang itigil ang pag iyak. Maya maya ay mukhang napagod na rin ang kanyang mga mata at tumigil na ang pagbuhos ng mga tubig rito. Tiningnan ko ang aking kapatid at ang aking mga magulang.

It has started, mom and dad. They're starting to torment me.

Alam kong dapat ko na silang pakawalan. Alam kong dapat ko na silang hayaang manahimik. Ganito pala ang pakiramdam na ilibing ang sarili mong mga magulang. Nakakabaliw. Ngunit hindi ko na dapat pang isipin iyon.

Kung ito ang gustong mangyari ng aking kalaro, pagbibigyan ko siya.

Ilang minuto kong tinitigan ang aking mga magulang at hindi na lumapit pa sa kanila. Dahil kapag ginawa ko iyon ay baka hindi ko na mapigilang magdalamhati.

I have to do this.

"Nirvana, the king and queen needs to go. Ihatid mo na sila."

I stared coldly at the black and white caskets. Caskets. They are caskets and not just any object. They are the home for the dead.

"What are you saying--"

I cut her off with my stare.  "This room is too cold for them. They must go." pag uulit ko sa aking utos ngunit mukhang hindi siya pumapayag. Tiningnan niya ako ng masama kahit na naniningkit na ang kanyang mga mata sa kakaiyak.