To Be Loved

A secret too big to Keep

So this was a assignment for my writing class last year but i planned jt to be part of the story. We had to write something with conflict between two of our characters that we made and i already made these two so yes ..... i hope that you guys like it.

Alex POV

I was looking out of the window of my office at the scene of the garden. The sky was clear; there was not even a wisp of cloud. A warm breeze blows lazily across the grass, and into the open widow hitting me in the face, relaxing me. I closed my eyes while the breeze blow my hair back and making my paper work that was neatly on my desk fly through the air and landing all over my office floor.

The sound of my office door opening caught my attention. I turned in my chair and looked to see who it was. Of course it was my loving butler. I gave him a small smile. I knew something that I had to tell my lover/butler.

Mathew walked up to me with a tray with of a strawberry scone and a cup of tea for my afternoon tea time. I looked at the scone and felt sick to my stomach. I looked up at Mathew who now looked kinda worried because strawberry scone were my favorite.

"Are you alright M'lady?" He asked

"Yes I'm alright I just don't want anything to eat."

"I apologizes I should have asked if you were hungry. You just always had mint tea with a strawberry scone for your afternoon snack. Do you wish for me to take it away?"

"It's ok Mathew really and no I'll eat it later alright but thank you."

"Your very welcome my love."

"You may go"

"Of course." With that he left.

A half an hour passed and I was still working on my paper work, I picked up the ones from the floor and neatly stacked them on my desk again. I felt my stomach flip. So I decided to eat the scone thinking that I was just hungry but after I took my second bite, I felt the feeling that nobody likes. I needed to throw up again.

Getting up I dashed to the bathroom and started to throw up. Once I was done my throat and stomach were killing me from the stomach acid that I just threw up. I sat against the tub and brought my legs up to my chest. 'Why me why now, I have so much paper work things to do for the company, why does this have to happen.' I thought to myself.

I was happy to be pregnant but I was also beyond terrified. I shut my eyes trying to stay calm but eventually drifted off.

*Dream*

I was in my office looking at Mathew. Everything around us was quiet and it started to freak me out.

"What is it you needed to tell me my sweet?" He said

"Well...um uh... Mathew I don't want anything to change between us. I love you with all my heart." I looked at him

"What's wrong?"

"Mathew I'm p-pregnant." He didn't say anything just started at me. "M-Mathew?"

"I...I...." He stuttered

"Mathew say something" I said nervously

He breathe then said "N-no.... I'm sorry but no...I can't handle a child..."

"M-athew." I said feeling my heart breaking, I walked up to him

"NO IDON'T WANT A CHILD" He yelled.

"M-Mathew." I felt a tear fall down my chin. With that he left the room.

I stayed in my office alone and cold. By now I couldn't stop crying.

I woke up with wet cheeks. I looked around and noticed that I was in my bedroom lying in bed.

I sat up "Nope lay back down...M'lady why didn't you tell me that you were sick."

"W-what" I asked confused

"I found you in the bathroom passed out pale as a ghost lying next to the toilet, which had puke in it. I kinda put the pieces together. You also have a small fever."

I've must have worried and stressed so much that it gave myself a fever. I thought to myself

"I'm fine Mathew." I told him.

"No rest please. I'll go and get you some tea."

I staying down and watched as Mathew left, scenes were running through my brain making me feel like my brain was going to explode. Mathew walked back in with a cup of tea.

"Here you go M'lady."

I sat up and took it "Thank you Mathew." I felt like I was going to throw up again but I tried to ignore it. "M-Mathew I have something to tell you."

"What is it Love." He said siting on the bed

"W-well...um please don't be mad or, leave me please." I said tearing up

"Hey, hey Alex its ok....Shh I won't ever leave, why would you think that?" He took the tea from me and pulled me onto his lap.

"M-Mathew I-I'm.....I'm" I started but I was too scared to say it.

"You're what love."

"Pregnant." I said low

"What."

"I'm pregnant Mathew" I said finally after a few breaths

He didn't say anything at first but then he smiled "Really, are you sure?" He asked excitedly

I nodded "That's the reason you found me in the bathroom. I was throwing up again."

"That's fantastic Alex I'm so happy"

"You are?" I asked

"But of course. Why wouldn't I be?"

"I kept thinking that you would leave me if I told you." I told him

"Well you thought wrong, and maybe you shouldn't have stressed so much. You should have just told me I know that you were scared but it's ok. And I would never leave you."

Niallsgirl
Another updated so shes pregnant what are your thoughts so far....I love it what about you? I love writing this story and writing altogether. I hope that you like my writing.