Innocence Lost

Chapter 2 (Choosing)

The morning came so much faster than I wanted it to. The rays from the sun streamed through the blinds, forcing my eyes to open.  Today was choosing day and I still haven't decided what I was going to do. All throughout the factions dependents were either saying goodbye to their families or celebrating the fact they would be staying in their original factions.

I laid there thinking. Maybe I should choose Abnegation, the selfless. They live an easy life, putting other people's needs before their own. Maybe Amity, the peaceful. Those people are peace loving hippies, I don't think I would last. Or maybe Candor, the honest. Honesty and integrity are great virtues to have, but telling small white lies is sometimes needed. That wouldn't work for me, especially with the truth serum they administer during initiation. I would probably openly admit to being divergent if asked why I choose Candor. Then lastly Dauntless, the brave and courageous. Every Dauntless member I have come across are thrill seekers waiting for their next adrenaline rush. No matter what I choose it will not be easy. I would be betraying my parents, who had my whole life planned out for me.

I'm definitely approaching this whole thing like a true Erudite. It's like trying to solve a problem I need a solution to.  Maybe I really do belong in Erudite. I sigh deeply, this is too much. As I laid in my bed visions of my sister, my friends, even my parents who could care less about me kept running through my mind. This is the last time I will wake up in this room.

I will definitely see Jeanine once I get to the Hub, avoiding her will be inevitable. In her twisted mind she really believes I'm going to choose Erudite and work for her.  Divergents were executed the moment that she found out about them, I would be done for if I stayed. Unless she wishes to do something else with me, which is highly unlikely.  There was a knock on the door and Kylie barges in.

"Katelyn, are you decent?" She hums.

Kylie's voice automatically puts a smile on my face "What if I was naked Kye?"

"I've seen you naked plenty of times" she laughs.

She walks over to my bed and gets under the sheets with me, curling her fingers in my long hair.  When she was little she would always manage to get into bed with me whenever she had a bad dream and I would wake up to her curling her little fingers in my hair.  I'm going to miss these moments.

"Did you sleep well?" She asked sadly.

I had to lie "Like a log"

"Good.  I'm gonna help you get ready"

We lay there a little while longer, cherishing this moment, for we both know it's going to be the last.

Kylie then says in a whisper "Can you tell me how the test went?"

I turn on my back, looking up at the ceiling. I didn't want to talk about it, but I had promised her I would.

"It was interesting.  A Dauntless woman administered it"

"Oh my, that must have been scary" she said with a look of shock. 

I laughed at her facial expression "She actually wasn't bad.  I would have expected worse.  Anyway Kye, after the test I really wasn't feeling well so she sent me home.  There's nothing more I can really say about it since we aren't supposed to tell people our result"