Innocence Lost

Chapter 47

Kate's POV

I was left standing in the middle of Zeke's bathroom, looking at the door that he had just walked out of.

"I'm a whore" I said to myself as I looked into the mirror.

That's how Eric just treated me. Like it's okay for him to have me anytime he wants. One minute he wants to kill me the next he has me bent over a sink with my skirt bunched up around my waist.

I could still feel his hands all over me. Hell, I wanted his hands all over me since the last time we were together. I don't know what has gotten into me. I wasn't like this before. I was always afraid of intimacy, of being close to another person physically. But now Eric had me doing things I would have never thought of wanting to do with anyone. There is seriously something wrong with me.

I need to get out of this bathroom but I couldn't stop my legs from trembling. I turned once again to look at my reflection in the mirror. Great, I look like I just got fucked in a bathroom. As I fix my hair and straighten out my clothes I can't help my eyes from watering. I just wish things were different. I wish he wanted me for more than just sex. Is that all I'll ever be to him?

Wanting to leave asap, I bolted out the door and tried my best to avoid eye contact with everyone. I couldn't face Caroline or even Jax after what I've just done.

"Kate, where did you go?" Dylan came up behind me "Caroline was looking everywhere for you"

I tried not to look him in the eyes. When I didn't answer he grabbed my arm and spun me around. He clearly saw I was upset and crying.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" He asked concerned.

It's took me a few seconds to answer him.

"Y-yeah, yeah, I'm f-fine. Tell Caroline I wasn't feeling too g-good and left" I tried my best to spit the words out but I couldn't help stuttering.

I pulled my arm away from him and stormed out the door.

"Kate, stop" I heard him say over my shoulder.

All I wanted to do was get back to the dorms and scrub my body under the cold water until my skin was raw. As I rushed down the hall I bumped into someone hard while turning the corner, almost losing my footing.

Ryker. Great, just what I needed right now.

He runs his tongue along his teeth as he steps closer towards me "Kate, where are you off to in such a rush?"

"Back to the dorms" I say, trying to brush past him.

I scowled as I smelled the stench of alcohol on his breath.

"Excuse me" I try to brush past him on his other side but he continued to block my way.

"Ryker, your drunk. You need to move out of my way" I tell him as fiercely as I could.

"What a firecracker you are" he said snickering.

His eyes grew dark as he looked down at me, his eyes wondering over my outfit. I didn't like the fact that we were alone in the darkened hallway, so I turn to go back the way I came. He kept walking behind me till he bumped his chest into my back. I could feel his breath hot against my neck.

"Your such a beautiful little thing, aren't you" his voice was hoarse.

I cringed as his hand reached around my waist.

"I see why Eric is so taken with you. Are you that good a fuck as he tells me or do I have to find out for myself?" he says, inhaling the scent of my hair.