Finding Happiness book II- Falling into Place

Chapter 19-- Something in the oven

Jane's P.O.V

I'm glad Ella Stella managed to stay away from my family since I confronted her. Now I'm starting to realize that sometimes you just have to learn to put people in their place. The old me would have been quiet and just watch while everything repeats itself.

But lately Liam has been talking so much about having another baby. I personally don't think we are ready for it, because we are so busy, and Ian is a handful. I haven't told Liam about my opinion, because he's really excited about us having another child. I've been secretly using birth control and after pills. I do feel bad, but I'm not ready to let him know I'm not trying to have another child yet.

We are finally starting a three days weekend tomorrow. I decided to bake and just have fun with the family and my close friends.

When Liam and I got home, we had dinner with Ian and prepare him for bed.

In order to take my pills without Liam noticing, I always go up to our room first while Liam is busy with something or when he is taking a shower. As usual, I ran to our room and took the pills from my bedside where I usually hide it. I took the whole tablet out to take the pills. I took the amount doctor told me to use and swallowed it with water. At that moment Liam walked in.

I got so scared I jumped and Liam walked up to me. "What are you doing?" He asked. I tried to hide the pill. "What are you hiding?" He asked again. "Nothing" I answered as fast as I could. He furrowed his eyebrows suspiciously. "What are you hiding?" He asked again reaching for my hand. I tried to hide it under the pillow but it fell on the floor. Before I could grab it he grabbed it.

He picked it and checked it out but he couldn't figure it out. "Wait, are you sick? When did you go to the doctor's?" He asked with a worried tone, but I couldn't answer. My heart was beating so fast.

"What is this for? The name definitely isn't familiar with any fever pills." He said while checking out the tablet. He pulled out his phone and tried to ask SIRI, but I grabbed his phone before he could pronounce the name.

"It's... It's a..." I tried to talk but I was too scared. "It's a what? Are you okay? You don't look good, but you were fine all day. What's wrong?" He asked concerned. "It's a contraceptive for... for birth... birth control." I said with my eyes closed.

"A what?" He asked. "Look I'm sorry" I said feeling bad. "You're using birth control pills? Since when?" He asked getting angry. "It's been a while." I replied.

"So you never stopped even after taking that other one out at the doctor's?" He asked.

"I'm sorry, it's just that__" He cut me off.

"It's just what? We've been trying to have another child for the past six weeks and here you are. So I was the only one trying to have another child, not you? And you couldn't even tell me? You couldn't even say anything while we talk about another child. That's so wicked. So I was the only one excited, daydreaming, while you just took me for a fool? You know how much I wanted another child. So all the energy even after a long day at work were for nothing? How could you be so mean? Was it fun making a fool out of me? I can't believe you, that's so selfish of you." He said angrily and stormed out of the room.

Oh God! What have I done?

I feel so bad.

I think it's better to let him cool off before talking to him. I walk down stairs just to make sure he didn't leave the house like that. I saw him drinking a glass of water in the kitchen. He walked into one of the guest rooms as soon as he saw me looking at him.

I let out a breath knowing for sure he's not leaving the house. I went back to our room. I took my phone and text him.

I'm really sorry babe