Complicated//Shawn Mendes// !COMPLETED! ✔️

Chapter 21

(...)
We sit in a nearby cafe. Hot cocoa in front of me and I just look at it,stirring it with a spoon,calming myself down.
"Will you look at me,so I can start?",he says as he stops my hand from stirring the cocoa.
"Start", I say harshly,pulling my hand away from his and looking at him.
"That girl who you saw today was my fuck buddy a year ago",he spits out finally.
"Was?Didn't know that fuck buddies act that way,too. It looked more like she is your girlfriend", I raise my eyebrow.
"Was,Arya,was. We were never and will never be anything more than that,not even that anymore. She's gone to college. It was last year thing",he says.
"Ohh,so I was your little comfort buddy? Little comforting mistress?",I clench my teeth.
"Stop. Stop immediately!",he raises his voice.
"What? We both know that's true",anger building up in me.
"You were not my comfort buddy nor mistress,listen to yourself",his lips make weird shape of dissatisfaction and pull from each other leaving a little gap between.
"Yeah,you are right. I forgot you "don't do feelings". I was slowly replacing her and others place. Forget about it. I'm not becoming one of your fuck buddies", I spit my words out.
"Goddamn it,Arya. Why are you so stubborn?!",he is angry.
"When will you understand that you can't be and never will be like them?! I-I-I...I trust you for fuck's sake",he spills out and in that exact moment I see him turning pale,looking behind me.
I turn around and see the same redhead from earlier coming towards us. Her flaming red,a little bit orange,hair is falling down her shoulders and framing her beautiful face. I look like a 0 out of 100 next to her. We both follow her with our eyes as she sits right next to Shawn. Her hand sticks out towards me and she gives me wide smile, revealing her white teeth.
I shake her hand as she speaks to me:
"Hi,I'm Anastasia,Shawn's girlfriend and you must be the one who is fucking him while I'm away!".
My grip gets weaker and I feel like I'm about to throw up. That stupid smile still on her face.
"Oh! No,no! You must have mistaken me for someone else. I'm only his tutor.Nothing else",I smile back as I try to play it cool.
"Ana,can you not? How many times have I told you that we were and will never be anything? We fucked couple of times,okay I get it, and that's it.Can you fuck off?",he points towards the doors with his finger.
"Don't you Ana me. We fucked couple of times? Dear,as I remember, it's more like couple of times per day",she says with her cute voice and I honestly hope I don't throw up all over everything she said.
"Leave Anastasia. Now. It's enough",he pushes her out and I see them standing in front of the cafe.
She slams his chest and he pushes her away. He pointing at her,she screaming angrily and me just watching them through window. I feel sick.I pull my things and rush to the restroom . I throw up. I was his mistress. That's how it feels. I only thank God that we didn't have sex. Pictures from last night go in circle in my mind and I feel sick again and again. I can't throw up again. I just leave the restroom. I need to go home.No,I need to go away from here,somewhere where I can me alone.
He is back,sitting where he was moments before Anastasia came. Even her name is sexy. I just pass by.
"Arya.....",I hear him calling.
"Don't. Just don't. It's enough. Enough of you putting me through shit like this. You fucked up and deal with it",I cut him off.
I see him standing up.
"Don't you dare coming near me! Stay away",I stop him and rush out.
Fresh,cold air fills up my lungs as I walk fast to my car. I drive off and as I do I see Shawn standing behind,in front of cafe,his hands on his head.I just drive and look away.
The only spot I know where I'll be alone is that one where Shawn and I went when he almost kissed me and when I realized he has me. That's where I go.
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I turn off my car and go out. Way there is completely covered in thick snow. I don't care so I just keep walking,pulling my legs heavily as snow is to my knees. Soon I reach the spot. Lake looks frozen. It's even prettier like this. This lake like a little frozen gem and white trees surrounding it. Peaceful. Exactly what I need. I need peace after the storm named by him. I stand on the bridge and scream at the top of my lungs. Better.

(...)
"I knew I'd find you here",I hear distant voice shouting as I sit on little dry spot on the bridge.
"Then don't ruin it,turn around and leave",I reply.
"I'm not leaving",he says.
"She lied. She fucking lied just to provoke you and to provoke me",I face him as he comes closer and hopefully speaks the truth.
"Now you want me to believe you?",I look away from him.
"Yes. I'm not lying. I hate lying and I hate liars. My father was one and I'm not becoming him",he grabs my right arm.
"Whatever. I'm too tired to fight you",I say as I try to pull my hand away.
"What did you do with it?",he asks as I feel him unwrapping it.
"Nothing. Just your school",I say and pull it out of his hand.
"Let me see",he grabs it again.
"Mendes,don't touch me",I say sharply.
That doesn't stop him. He unwraps my t-shirt and his fingerprints touch my sore,flaming hot,bloody knuckles.
"You are insane",he says as he exactly knows what have I done.
He has done it a lot of times before,I bet.
Our knuckles now match.Both bruised,mine bloody and both hurt.
"You made me insane",I say quietly and look back at him.
I feel his hands on my face and his lips find their way onto mine. Kiss full of sorrow and pain. My mind,my body,me craving him. He tasting my lips as they move in synchronized way. I wanted to stop breathing as I kiss him and die like that with his lips pressed on mine. His soft,warm lips making my stomach hurt and I feel them breaking my heart as we kiss. I frown and make sad,desperate face,slowly stopping kissing him. Our lips still connected as I lean on his forehead. I feel them separating  slowly,painfully. His thumbs caressing my cheeks as he holds them.
"God,we're going to destroy each other",I breathe out.
"Probably..",a small smile appears on his face,"...but isn't that the point?"